Entertainment TV Victoria Gotti Reveals Why She Tried to Keep 'Painful' Death of Daughter Out of Lifetime Biopic Victoria Gotti: My Father's Daughter premieres on Lifetime on Saturday By Dave Quinn Dave Quinn Instagram Twitter Dave Quinn is an Editor for PEOPLE, working across a number of verticals including the Entertainment, Lifestyle and News teams. He joined in 2006 as a Writer/Reporter where he became known for his Bravo and Broadway exclusives across print and digital. Dave is the author of the No. 1 New York Times best-selling book, Not All Diamonds and Rosé: The Inside Story of the Real Housewives from the People Who Lived It. He's appeared on many broadcasts including ABC's Good Morning America, Bravo's Watch What Happens Live with Andy Cohen, E!'s Daily Pop, NBC's New York Live and PEOPLE's own Reality Check, as well as a number of podcasts like Bitch Sesh, Everything Iconic, Watch What Crappens, Hot Off the Mess, Mention It All, and PEOPLE Every Day. Prior to working at PEOPLE, Dave was the chief Theater Reporter for NBC New York and co-host of Entertainment Weekly's acclaimed TV Recaps series. People Editorial Guidelines Published on February 9, 2019 10:53 AM Share Tweet Pin Email Photo: Jesse Grant/Getty Images Victoria Gotti's life will be immortalized in a new Lifetime biopic set to premiere Saturday that explores her complicated relationship with her father, late mob boss John Gotti. But while the 56-year-old wrote and produced Victoria Gotti: My Father's Daughter and has a role in the movie, there's one scene even she couldn't keep out of her story. In a candid conversation about the special with PEOPLE, Gotti reveals that she fought hard with Lifetime executives to avoid including the death of her first child, daughter Justine. The latter was tragically stillborn nine months after Gotti's 1984 wedding to now ex-husband Carmine Agnello. "I didn't want [that scene] in there," Gotti confessed. "That was very painful to me. And it's not about having to explain it or not wanting to explain it — I just felt like it's mine, not yours. You didn't know her." See Victoria Gotti Confront Her Mob Boss Father in My Father's Daughter First Look Images Dave Kotinsky/Getty Gotti originally didn't include the moment in the script, but "somebody caught it" during the movie's seven-year development process. In the end, though, Gotti is happy with how the moment is portrayed. "They do it tastefully in the movie," said Gotti, who would go on to have three other children: Carmine Jr., 32, John, 31, and Frankie, 28. "You see birth No. 1 which is bad, and then birth No. 2, No. 3 and No. 4 — it's done that way so it's like, 'Oh she has a family now.' So it's not so bad. But that's something I really wanted left out." RELATED: Mom Honors Stillborn Daughter with Glittering Maternity Shoot for Her Rainbow Baby While that moment made it into Victoria Gotti: My Father's Daughter, Gotti was surprised by the decision to cut a scene about the death of her best friend Roseanne, who was killed in a car accident. During that time, Gotti and Roseanne were prohibited from seeing their boyfriends by their fathers and brothers, respectively. The young ladies would sneak out, going to the "outskirts of town to have dinner so no one would see," Gotti said. But one night, they were caught by Roseanne's brother, who took her away in his car. Minutes later, Gotti heard sirens. Following them, she found the car wreck. Roseanne's brother had been drinking, Gotti remembered and he hit a median in the road. Roseanne's body had flown through the windshield and landed in a tree. Her dismembered leg was on the street. "I knew from the shoe," Gotti said, getting emotional. "I remember looking at the shoe in the street on her leg, knowing it was her. And it just destroyed me." "That was an important scene to me because I felt it was meant to change fate completely," Gotti reflected. "Here we were, two kids, not caring about consequences. … And then to have one of my closest friends killed right in front of me? I'd never been up close and personal with death. I was in such a state of shock. I didn't even know how to tell my mother and father. I couldn't say I was in the car with who I wasn't supposed to be with. That whole scene was very pivotal to my life." Victoria Gotti: My Father’s Daughter. Sergei Bachlakov/Lifetime Victoria Gotti: My Father’s Daughter. Diyah Pera/Lifetime Overall, she's happy with the resulting film, especially actress Chelsea Frei's portrayal of Gotti. "She did a good job," Gotti said. "She did consult with me before she did the role, but that had no bearing on what I think of her performance." While Gotti admits the process of writing the film was difficult. "There were a few really bad parts of my life that I had to get away from the script for hours, sometimes days, because I had to relive them all over again because it was painful." She thinks the opportunity to show fans a different side of her was worth it. "There are so many misconceptions of me," Gotti said, "and this movie, it really clears those up." The biggest one? "That I was raised rich, that I'm a princess — I love that one," joked Gotti. "We grew up very, very poor. We were very young. We were in downtown Brooklyn. We had nothing, but we didn't care. We were loved, my siblings and I. We were a very close-knit family." Victoria Gotti: My Father's Daughter premieres Saturday (8 p.m. ET) on Lifetime.