Entertainment TV 'This Is Us' ' Chrissy Metz Reveals It Took Her 38 Years to Finally Wear a Swimsuit on Vacation "I'm gonna find a bathing suit I like and I'm gonna wear it," she told Glamour for their November cover By Joelle Goldstein Joelle Goldstein Twitter Joelle Goldstein is a TV Staff Editor for PEOPLE Digital. She has been with the brand for nearly five years, beginning her time as a digital news writer, where she covered everything from entertainment news to crime stories and royal tours. Since then, she has worked as a writer-reporter on the Human Interest team and an associate editor on the TV team. In her current role, Joelle oversees all things TV and enjoys being able to say she has to watch The Kardashians and America's Got Talent for "work". Prior to joining PEOPLE, Joelle was employed at The Hollywood Reporter. She graduated from Ithaca College with a Bachelors in Television-Radio (and an appearance in the NCAA Women's Volleyball Final Four!) People Editorial Guidelines Published on October 11, 2018 09:00 PM Share Tweet Pin Email Photo: Chrissy Metz/Instagram Chrissy Metz is an advocate for loving the skin you’re in but loving herself did not happen overnight. In the two years since NBC’s smash hit drama This Is Us premiered, breakout star Metz, 38, has found fame and a calling as a role model for body positivity. But the actress recently revealed that it has taken her entire life to finally feel comfortable enough to wear a swimsuit. “I grew up wearing a T-shirt at the pool,” she told Glamour for their November cover story. “As an adult, I was like, ‘I’m gonna find a bathing suit I like and I’m gonna wear it.'” At the end of June, Metz did just that. While vacationing with a friend in Barbados at the Sandals resort, the actress documented the moment and snapped a photo of herself wearing a black Lane Bryant suit. Chrissy Metz/Instagram Though Metz was proud to shed some of her insecurities, she said other people were also impressed with her decision, but their responses came off in the wrong manner. “There were people, like, ‘Oh my God, look at you! You know I could never do that,'” she recalled to the publication. “It’s a backhanded compliment, but I’m doing what I want to do.” While portraying Kate Pearson on This is Us, Metz’s most recent storylines have focused on her trials and tribulations of getting pregnant with her husband Toby (played by Chris Sullivan), as well as moving past her father’s tragic death, establishing her singing career, and adjusting to married life. John Shearer/Getty Image This Is Us‘ Chrissy Metz on Finding Happiness After Years of Dieting and Depression: ‘I’m Proud of Who I Am’ Though her weight is discussed on the show, it is not the only thing her character deals with — something which is Metz is grateful for. “People who’ve never been overweight don’t understand what it all entails. They think you’re just sitting in the corner and all you do is eat,” she told Glamour. “My thing is, let’s get to the real issues — because the food is the symptom; it’s not the issue. Everyone’s filling a void with something.” But even with the success of NBC’s drama, an appearance in Netflix’s Sierra Burgess Is a Loser, and an upcoming film Breakthrough slated for 2019, Metz continues to receive backlash for her weight. “People are still surprised that a big girl could be on TV, and it’s like, Ugh, really? Really?” she said. “There’s so much other stuff to talk about.” Frazer Harrison/Getty This Is Us Star Chrissy Metz Opens Up About Dating in Hollywood After Her Breakup Metz has previously spoken out about embracing her curves, telling PEOPLE in our 2017 style issue that being on the red carpet has helped her feel more confident about her appearance. “The red carpet transformed how I dressed,” she said. “I never wore form-fitting dresses before. There are a lot of people who make you feel uncomfortable if you show a chubby stomach, arm or leg. I was being educated, while becoming part of the conversation on size inclusivity.” RELATED VIDEO: This Is Us’ Chrissy Metz Opens Up About Being Shamed for Her Weight and Why She’s Finally Happy in Her Own Skin: “I Don’t Focus on Numbers” “When I started promoting This Is Us, I was worried about how things would photograph, but I slowly gained confidence,” she continued. “I love bold colors and prints now, like the floral gown I wore to the Critics’ Choice Awards. Being a big girl, you want to hide sometimes, but with that dress, it was like ‘Boom! I’m here, in all my embroidered glory.'” Metz added that she wants to be at the forefront of the body positive conversation to help inspire other women to step out of their comfort zone and experiment with clothing.