The Bachelor's Britt: 'I Cried Every Day' After I Was Sent Home
Also, Britt tells PEOPLE whether she would consider becoming the next Bachelorette
Given that she essentially got herself kicked off the show by revealing her hurt over Chris giving a group-date rose to Kaitlyn rather than herself, it was no surprise that the Tell All had Britt, well, telling all.
We spoke to Britt following the taping of the Tell All, and she talked about her hurt over Carly’s betrayal and over Chris deciding to send her home, and whether or not she’d consider becoming the next Bachelorette.
On How She Was Portrayed
Britt had “no idea” what the girls were saying behind her back and revealed, quite interestingly, that the contestants have to sign a contract “that’s like, ‘We can humiliate you, we can deface you, blah blah …..’ ” She says she decided to approach the show “with integrity” and that she was going to be “nice to everybody.”
“I feel betrayed,” she tells PEOPLE. “We were very close in the house. It’s like summer camp. I’ve never seen anything like it, and I’m glad that I wasn’t aware of it because I feel like it gave me a better experience.
“It would have been absolutely awful if I knew how they felt about me,” says Britt.
Unsurprisingly, Britt was not necessarily thrilled with how she was portrayed. “It wasn’t the person I am,” she says. “I have family and even strangers who have been really supportive, which has been shocking to me, because I’m almost like, if I watch that, I would think I’m a bad person.”
However, she is aware of the reality of, well, reality TV: “The way they chop it up is so it’s was hard for me. I understand. What, are they not going to show people talking s—? Are they not going to show it? They have to. It’s TV. But it was hard to watch.”
As you may expect, Britt “partially” blames Carly for being sent home. “There was more complexity [in my relationship with Chris] than what any one person said, but there’s just no denying that our connection was super on-point – and then she talks to Chris, and it’s gone. Totally gone.”
Naturally, Britt has not spoken to Carly since, “because the only question I have for her is, Why did she fake it to me and pretend that we were close the whole time and not bring it up to me?”
Adds Britt, “I don’t think I don’t think she’s a bad person. I think she’s a broken person.”
On Becoming the Next Bachelorette
“If you asked me right after I left, I would say, ‘No way. This is too hard. No human being can do this,’ ” she tells PEOPLE of rumblings she’s in the running to become the next Bachelorette. “But now I’m healing up and, yeah, I was really having real feelings for somebody and that didn’t work out, but I’m watching it work out for other people and I do think I could. Yeah, I think I would totally try it.”
After all, Britt has been single following the taping of The Bachelor. “I’ve been pretty emotionally raw, because it was pretty hard for me after I left. I went home to Michigan, and I just, like, cried every day. I didn’t know what was going on with myself.”
Now that she’s back in Los Angeles, Britt is back to waitressing but the airing of the episodes has left her with “a whole new thing to navigate emotionally. Now that it’s over, I’ll be a human again.”
Finally, Britt admits that she shouldn’t have processed her “private emotions out loud” and that she “should have kept those inside.”
“Of course everyone wants those feelings,” she says. “I want to feel a connection with you, and I want to know that you feel it, but yeah, I regret it because Kaitlyn’s awesome. I don’t want to steal her moment. I even regretted making Carly feel uncomfortable, and I apologized immediately, and I apologized over and over again because that was unacceptable. The timing was bad and I should have kept that to myself.”
That said, she thought that Chris was too hard on her.
Other than that moment, however, Britt has no regrets about being a part of The Bachelor.
The Bachelor airs Mondays (8 P.M. ET) on ABC.
• Reporting by NICOLE SANDS