Higgins proposed to Bushnell on Monday's Bachelor finale

By Aili Nahas
Updated March 16, 2016 04:00 PM
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The Bachelor EXCLUSIVE! Bachelor Ben Higgins opens up about why fiancée Lauren Bushnell “was always the one” and the decision he regrets the most. Subscribe now for all their wedding plan details plus exclusive photos, only in PEOPLE!

He may have fallen for two women on The Bachelor, but now Ben Higgins only has eyes for his fiancée Lauren Bushnell.

“It was always Lauren,” Higgins tells PEOPLE exclusively in this week’s issue. And despite the fact that he also told runner up (and new Bachelorette) JoJo Fletcher that he loved her, “no matter how much I felt for JoJo, I knew I could never say goodbye to Lauren.”

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In fact, it was at times a struggle from the beginning for Higgins to focus on dating other women when he felt so strongly for Bushnell.

“From the time she got out of the limo, to the first time I saw her walk around the corner at a cocktail party, everything kept being better than I ever expected,” says Higgins, 26. “That was freaking me out! I wasn’t used to that.”

For much more from Ben and Lauren’s new life together, pick up this week’s issue of PEOPLE, on newsstands Friday

And Higgins knew he had to give his all to the process, as difficult as it could be.

“There were women who gave up their lives to try to see if things could work, and I had agreed, made a promise to myself that I would go through this. There were times that I had to fool myself into thinking I was open to other women. It was too good to be true! And as weird as it sounds, it’s not fair to not be open.”

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His openness led to an expression of love for Fletcher, one that Higgins doesn’t regret, but that he’s “moved on” from.

“It’s super confusing,” says Higgins of falling for two women. “But I really had to dive into where my heart was. At the end, I found the person I want to be with. There are a lot of goodbyes in The Bachelor process. Now I’ll never have to say goodbye again.”