Gregg Leakes was diagnosed with stage 3 colon cancer last year

NeNe Leakes was brought to tears on Sunday’s episode of The Real Housewives of Atlanta, over a complicated sea of emotions she was feeling about husband Gregg Leakes amid his cancer battle.

The 51-year-old Swagg Boutique owner was traveling with fellow Atlanta Housewives Cynthia Bailey, Kandi Burruss, Porsha Williams, Sharmi DeVoe, and Eva Marcille — as well as pals Marlo Hampton and Tanya Sam — to Tokyo, Japan. But despite being halfway around the world, she still found her mind back with Gregg in Atlanta.

“I’m having a hard time, and it’s not the trip, it’s what’s going on between us,” NeNe told Gregg in a pointed phone call on the trip.

The two had been arguing before her getaway, with Gregg ignoring her calls while they were away. In previous episodes, NeNe said that Gregg’s attitude had been very negative and short as he sought treatment for his ongoing battle with stage 3 colon cancer.

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Though he attempted to apologize on Sunday, NeNe wasn’t having it. “[Sorry] doesn’t really work. I hear ‘I’m sorry’ all the time,” she told him. “I feel like I’ve been trying to support you. I’m over here falling to pieces and I don’t have anyone to lift me up.”

“Gregg being diagnosed with cancer, I don’t have that same nurturing type of Gregg that I’m used to and that I love,” she told audiences. “I tried to have patience with the new person that he is but it’s not easy. I understand Gregg is sick. I just want a little piece of him to come back.”

After their call, NeNe opened up about her frustrations to pal Cynthia Bailey. “I get that he’s overwhelmed and he’s scared but I am overwhelmed too,” she said. “It’s a lot for me. I don’t ever get emotional about stuff but this is making me emotional, it really is.”

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She revealed that things between her and Gregg were so bad that she worried the two would divorce again, as they had in 2011.

“We’ve been tight for a long time and this sucks. I’m so serious because I never get this upset about stuff. [But] I feel like we’re going back to the same way we came when we were breaking up,” NeNe said. “It’s really hard. I have to be way out here by myself and I can’t talk to him.”

“I hate when people say stuff like, ‘You’re so strong.’ I still have feelings. I hate that word, ‘Strong,’ ” NeNe added. “I have feelings. I’m tired. I’m tired of trying to put on a face for everybody. No body is taking care of me.”

She added later, “I want to see my vows all the way through. I just… I just cannot do this. Am I capable? I want to make it but it’s a tough time.”

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By the end of the episode, NeNe was in tears again — this time over a bouquet of flowers Gregg sent with a note of apology.

“Mrs. NeNe Leakes. You are for me…,” Gregg wrote. “When you are in pain, I hurt too. Forgive me for my errors and let me drown you in my love. Hurt no more — for I feel the pain I inflicted on you. Let me back in your heart so that I can touch it and mend our love so that we can continue to grow with each other.”

“I love you so much,” he continued — signing the note, “Your husband, friends, and biggest supporter.

His move worked, with NeNe seeming to forgive him. “It’s beautiful,” she said. “Gregg is the only person who can piss me off in five seconds. And he’s the only person that can literally make me smile in five seconds.”

RHOA airs Sundays at 8 p.m. ET on Bravo.