“I really do [feel it], because I know all eyes are on me,” Lindsay, 32, tells PEOPLE exclusively in this week’s issue. “They’re on me because I’m something new and different that they haven’t seen in this franchise before. With that, everyone’s going to have an opinion.”
That said, Lindsay, who works as a trial attorney in Dallas, says she’s braced herself to face the onslaught of attention.
“There’s going to be a lot of judgment, and I can’t please everyone,” she says. “I thought to myself, ‘Do I really want to do that? Do I want to take on that challenge?’ — and I’m not one to run away from a challenge, so why not challenge myself and have the opportunity to get exactly what it is that I want for myself?”
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“Just being the first, setting a standard — all eyes are on you. You know they’re watching you,” she continues. “Not just as a woman, not just as a black woman, but as a professional woman, as an older woman. I’m the oldest Bachelorette that there’s been. All eyes are on me for a lot of different reasons. That’s a lot to take in.”
And that’s without mentioning the emotional roller coaster of finding a fiancé on national television!
“This time, it’s about me and my journey for love, and typically I’ve been more private,” she says. “And although I was public with Nick, it was just a relationship with Nick — now I’m having this relationship with several upon several men. I’m a little nervous to do that!”
The Bachelorette airs Mondays (8 p.m. ET) on ABC.