She shared her life on The Girls Next Door, but Holly Madison has been hiding a secret until now.
The former Playboy bunny – who starred alongside Kendra Wilkinson, Bridget Marquardt and, of course, Hugh Hefner on the E! series – is releasing a memoir June 23 in which she reveals she was suicidal while living in the Playboy Mansion.
“What seemed like a fairy tale life inside the Playboy Mansion – including A-list celebrity parties and her own No. 1-rated television show for four years – quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies,” reads a press release for the tell-all, Down the Rabbit Hole.
The release also reveals that “Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all – and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.”