Entertainment TV Holly Madison Contemplated Suicide While Living in the Playboy Mansion The former Playboy bunny's tell-all is due in June By Jeff Nelson Jeff Nelson Instagram Twitter Jeff Nelson is the Senior News Editor, Entertainment at PEOPLE. For nearly a decade, he has worked across the brand's entertainment verticals, reporting on breaking news and writing and editing across platforms, as well as securing A-list cover exclusives, including Barry Manilow's coming out and an at-home interview with Madonna. Jeff has appeared as an expert on Good Morning America, Extra, HLN and SiriusXM, as well as at RuPaul's DragCon as a moderator. He studied magazine journalism at Drake University, graduating with a B.A. in Journalism & Mass Communication. People Editorial Guidelines Updated on December 1, 2020 10:23 PM Share Tweet Pin Email Photo: Gabe Ginsberg/FilmMagic She shared her life on The Girls Next Door, but Holly Madison has been hiding a secret until now. The former Playboy bunny – who starred alongside Kendra Wilkinson, Bridget Marquardt and, of course, Hugh Hefner on the E! series – is releasing a memoir June 23 in which she reveals she was suicidal while living in the Playboy Mansion. “What seemed like a fairy tale life inside the Playboy Mansion – including A-list celebrity parties and her own No. 1-rated television show for four years – quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies,” reads a press release for the tell-all, Down the Rabbit Hole. https://instagram.com/p/0atPyyFTEU/ The release also reveals that “Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all – and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.” Madison married music festival producer Pasquale Rotella in 2013. The pair welcomed their first child, daughter Rainbow Aurora, last September. Holly Madison Considered Suicide During Life in the Playboy Mansion