The pediatric nurse spills on her failed love affair with her Bachelor beau during Monday's preshow

By People Staff
Updated January 06, 2015 06:30 AM
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Nikki Ferrell isn’t bitter about her time on The Bachelor. She’s not even bummed that she lost out on a chance at marriage.

On the contrary, the pediatric nurse from Kansas City, Missouri, says she’s actually “really happy” these days, even though she ended her relationship with The Bachelor’s polarizing Juan Pablo Galavis in October.

“It didn’t end because we didn’t love each other or [over] a lack of communication,” Ferrell told host Chris Harrison during Monday night’s season 19 premiere of The Bachelor. “It just ended because of a difference of lifestyle. There was a point we said we love each other, like in a normal relationship.”

Ferrell said the distance between their two homes – Galavis actually lives in Miami – took an immediate toll on their fledgling relationship.

“It’s not from a lack of trying on either side,” explained Ferrell, who even tried to fix the relationship on VH1’s Couples Therapy. “It’s just I’m a nurse in Kansas City, he lives in Miami and is in the entertainment industry. That s his job. That s his lifestyle. It was really hard for me to fit into that. We gave it a good try, but we’re two different people.

“I wasn’t going to quit, I’m not quitter,” Ferrell continued. “I tried everything. He tried too. At the end of the day, we have different priorities. We have different lifestyles. It is what it is. We tried. We real-life tried, not TV tried.”

Ferrell also talked about the memorable After the Rose telecast when Galavis refused to express his love.

“As his girlfriend, I wanted to respect that. I’m gonna stand by my man,” she told Harrison. “Was it going to be 100 percent my choice? No, but I cared about him and I wanted to be a good girlfriend.

“No one prepares you for what’s going to happen on the show and being in the spotlight. It could have been easier, but I did feel happy at the end of the night. I wanted everyone else to be happy for me. It was misunderstood for a lot of reasons because we weren’t able to express ourselves, mostly him.”