"I consider it an honor and a privilege to be able to do what I do," Theresa Caputo tells people

By Brittany King
September 23, 2016 02:45 PM

Theresa Caputo has come to embrace her ability to communicate with the dead, but doesn’t mean she hasn’t had trouble accepting her gifts.

The Long Island Medium star, who is gearing up for a national tour kicking off Sunday, opened up to PEOPLE about how difficult it is to visit memorials: specifically Pearl Harbor and the 9/11 site.

“It’s interesting, a lot of times just coming into [New York City] in general is very overwhelming,” she tells PEOPLE. “I think that for me, I was reliving the whole thing all over again.

However, she shares that the national tragedy of Sept. 11, 2001, “was something that really pushed me to know that this is my soul’s journey and this is what I was meant to do. I struggled with it for a long time.”

But even now 15 years after the attacks on the Twin Towers, the Long Island native admits, “Something I haven’t been able to do is go to the Freedom Tower. [It’s] something that I want to do, but it’s something that I need to do by myself … but not by myself – if that makes any sense.”

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Caputo also struggled with those same emotions when she went to the USS Arizona Memorial in Hawaii.

“I felt the same way when I went to Pearl Harbor,” the mother of two says. “I could have just stayed there by myself and just … I didn’t find it scary or dark but emotional. I could feel the emotions of the people just walking by. It’s different then when I read someone. It’s more of a serenity and peace and I don’t want to say anything.”

“When I was in Pearl Harbor, I didn’t want to say anything, but I felt all of these emotions and it’s the same thing I have connected to 9/11,” Caputo continues. “I just want to soak up everything that I sense and feel in that very moment of where I am and just kind of savor it.”

Regardless of the emotional hardships she faces being a medium, Caputo knows that this is exactly where she’s needed.

“I know that this is what I’m supposed to do,” she says. “So, I consider it an honor and a privilege to be able to do what I do.”

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