Lisa Vanderpump lost her brother Mark to suicide three months before filming of season 9 began
Lisa Vanderpump isn’t interested in reliving the past.
The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills star said she doesn’t plan to tune into her hit Bravo show’s new season, admitting it would be too difficult.
“I haven’t seen the episode, I chose not to watch,” she told Entertainment Tonight of Tuesday’s premiere. “Personally, it was a very difficult time in my life, especially around the beginning of filming. So I’ve chosen not to go back to that space and not watch it.”
As fans know, the 58-year-old restauranteur fell out with her castmates during the course of season 9; Kyle Richards recently confirmed she and Vanderpump, once inseparable partners in crime, haven’t spoken since a blowout fight at her mansion. (The drama apparently began over a dog that Dorit Kemsley adopted from Vanderpump’s rescue center and then gave away.)
And three months before filming even began, Vanderpump lost her brother Mark to suicide.
Vanderpump previously said she wished she had taken a break from the show after experiencing such a devastating loss.
“I wasn’t as prepared for combat as I should’ve been,” she told ET. “It hasn’t been a good situation.”
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“I think this year, with where my mental state was — and I’ve been very honest about that, I struggled a lot, you know, after my brother’s suicide,” she continued. “The first few months it was really difficult, and I was kind of searching for happiness, so, I think you know … when something really significant happens in your life, maybe it does change you, you know?”
Mark was found unresponsive at his home in Gloucestershire, England, on April 30, 2018. He was transported to the hospital but died in the early hours of May 1. The DJ was 59.
Drug toxicity was determined as the cause of Mark’s death, according to Gloucestershire Live.
During the season premiere, Vanderpump said she believed his death by suicide was unintentional.
“I know my brother well enough to know my brother didn’t mean to do this,” Lisa, 58, told audiences. “It was a cry for help that went horribly wrong.”
She added, “There’s a lot of people who say taking a life is selfish, [but] I’ve never felt that.”