The reality star says though they are not getting back together, she will continue to support her ex
Khloé Kardashian is breaking her silence about her bedside vigil after Lamar Odom was found unconscious. Subscribe now for this exclusive interview, only in PEOPLE!
When she received the shocking news that day, “All I knew was I had to get there,” Kardashian says exclusively in this week’s issue of PEOPLE. “I had to get to him and make sure he was okay. I hate that he was in that situation. I wouldn’t want anybody in that situation, especially someone I love and care about.”
Despite calling off their divorce, Kardashian, 31, says she is not getting back together with 35-year-old Odom.
Though she remains loyal to the vows she once took, Kardashian says, “There are too many other important things, too many medical things. It’s not even in our brains thinking about us as a couple or having a relationship right now.”
“I loved him always, and I will always love him,” she says. “I don’t believe love is fickle. I believe when you love someone, you are allowed to love from afar. You don’t have to be with that person in order to love him.”
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Now, the Keeping up with the Kardashians star remains cautiously optimistic about Odom’s condition. “The fact that he woke up was definitely a sigh of relief for everybody,” she says. “Every hour is different. It goes up and it goes down but he’s awake. He’s alive and that’s all I wanted, was for him to be okay.”
And Kardashian’s devotion is unwavering, despite an uncertain future. “There is a very long road ahead of [Lamar],” she says. “He has to walk that road by himself, and, most importantly, he has to want to walk that road. I will be there supporting him every step of the way.”