Jillian Michaels says being a mom increases her fear of failure

By Sheila Cosgrove Baylis
Updated September 16, 2015 03:40 PM
James White

Jillian Michaels is going for it – she’s got two new shows coming out, and one of them goes where the reality star has never gone before – it features her family life with partner Heidi Rhoades.

But Michaels says a show that features a lesbian couple with kids is hardly revolutionary these days.

“Well, we skipped right over this being revolutionary the minute Caitlyn Jenner came around!” she says of her E! docu-series, Just Jillian, in her cover story for Health, on newsstands Friday.

“Everyone at first was like, ‘Is this going to be revolutionary?’ Now it’s all about being transgender. Dude, we’re old school. We skipped right over this. I was like, ‘Oh my God! We’re tired!’ ” says mom to Lukensia, 5, and Phoenix, 3.

Michaels, 41, says she’s nervous about how the new show will be received, but her biggest worry is Rhoades stepping into the spotlight.

“I get nervous every time we put something new out there,” the fitness guru, who also stars in the new Spike TV show Sweat Inc., says. “I am most worried about Heidi … I worry that she’s not used to being a public figure. But she’s a really smart woman; I’m sure she’ll be fine.”

The pair tend to take things in stride, such as the recent Supreme Court decision to support marriage equality. When she heard the news, Michaels says she “texted [Heidi] and was like, ‘Oh my God, babe!’ And she’s like, ‘Yay!’ And then we went back to our lives. All my heterosexual friends were turning their profiles rainbow-colored.”

“It’s good that the heterosexual community is being supportive because, otherwise, I don’t know that your point is taken as well,” she tells the magazine. “It’s like, ‘Oh, well of course you want gay marriage, you’re gay.’ I think when heterosexual people are talking to their peers and they’re like, ‘This is an equal rights thing,’ it’s a little bit easier. People know who I am. They know where I stand.”

Michaels came under fire last year for making controversial comments about being gay that she says were “misunderstood.” In response, she told PEOPLE she was proud to be gay and out. “If I was ashamed of who I am, I would be in the closet. Considering my family was on the cover of PEOPLE magazine, I think I’m pretty far from that.”