Entertainment TV Hannah Brown Opens Up About Using Alcohol as a Coping Mechanism: 'I Was Not in the Best Place' "But then when I was at home by myself, the only thing that was really giving me comfort was a glass of wine and then it became more than that," Hannah Brown said By Dory Jackson Dory Jackson Instagram Twitter Website Dory Jackson is an Associate Editor for PEOPLE's digital TV team. While at the brand, she's had the opportunity to interview a long list of celebrities, from Kate Hudson to Pierce Brosnan to Billy Porter. She also recaps popular TV shows like The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills and Vanderpump Rules.The New York-based Maryland native graduated from Randolph-Macon College in May 2016 with a focus in Communication Studies and Journalism. She came to PEOPLE in March 2021 after working at a number of major news companies, including Newsweek and Us Weekly. She also previously co-hosted a podcast called "Idol Nation." People Editorial Guidelines Published on April 29, 2022 05:27 PM Share Tweet Pin Email Trending Videos Hannah Brown is opening up about a tough period in her life. During an appearance on the Tamron Hall Show, the reality star spoke about the unhealthy way she coped with the issues she experienced after serving as The Bachelorette lead and winning Dancing with the Stars. She said she masked some of the pain she was experiencing with alcohol consumption. "I'd never really been a drinker before and I was on TV like every Monday for an entire year and didn't know how to handle how my life had so publicly been displayed," said Brown, 27. "[I] have always lived with a smile on my face and you know, tried to pretend like everything was okay," she continued. "But then when I was at home by myself, the only thing that was really giving me comfort was a glass of wine and then it became more than that and no excuses for mistakes that I've made but also, I was not in the best place of life and didn't know what resources I had to be able to get that help." But Brown says she is in a much better place now — and in a happy, stable relationship with boyfriend Adam Woolard. Hannah Brown Details Her Struggles with Sleep Paralysis: 'It's Super Scary' "I'm so thankful for my relationship now. It's such a mature relationship of two people who have gone on different journeys," she said. "I think I had to go through that journey of asking this question of 'Who am I?' and 'What do I want?' and he's also gone on that journey too." "We are people that do not find wholeness through each other but through becoming whole people as individuals that can then amplify each other's growth," she continued. "And that is something that I don't think that I've ever had is somebody that is equally encouraged and motivated by continuing to challenge and get better and move forward and grow in life as I am." Hannah Brown. Jon Kopaloff/Getty Images Brown added that she's "really proud of the relationship" she's currently in. "[I] can really see the progress I've made just in how I view my relationship and how I view my relationship with myself," she said. In the past, Brown has been very candid about her former alcohol dependency. Never miss a story — sign up for PEOPLE's free daily newsletter to stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories. The reality star previously wrote in her memoir, God Bless This Mess, that alcohol served as "another way of avoiding big problems" in her life. But her relationship with it "has definitely changed a lot" following her racially insensitive scandal. (She sparked controversy in 2020 for singing the N-word on Instagram Live.) "I'm actually, just for my mental health, not really drinking right now," she also told Entertainment Tonight last November. "I'll have a glass of wine or two, but [not more]... I thought I'd never have problems with [alcohol]. I just never had that personality." If you or someone you know is struggling with substance abuse, please contact the SAMHSA helpline at 1-800-662-HELP.