Emily Maynard Johnson dated Luyendyk Jr. on her season of The Bachelorette in 2012 but hasn’t spoken to him in years
When Arie Luyendyk Jr. dumped fiancée Becca Kufrin for runner-up Lauren Burnham on The Bachelor’s season finale, Emily Maynard Johnson was watching along like everyone else, though for her, it was a bit more personal.
“I felt really bad for everybody involved,” says Johnson, who dated Luyendyk Jr. on her season of The Bachelorette in 2012 but hasn’t spoken to him in years. “I was shocked like the rest of America, but it was so sad.”
Continues Johnson: “I felt so bad for Becca, she was totally blindsided. And I feel bad for Lauren for having to feel like she’s second place. And I feel bad for Arie, because that whole situation is so crazy. I wish he would have handled it differently, but I’m sure he wishes he had handled it differently.”
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Luyendyk Jr. was left broken-hearted after Johnson ended things, and it took him time to recover.
“Before the show, the last time I ever really loved anyone was Emily,” he told PEOPLE last year. “The breakup was really difficult.”
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And despite the backlash against Luyendyk Jr., Johnson, who is now happily married to Tyler Johnson and the mother of four children, sympathizes with his situation.
“The human side of me wants to sit back and say how can he do that but I’ve been through that and it’s crazy,” says Johnson, who was engaged to Jef Holm on the season finale but split with him three months later.
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“At a time when you should feel so strong in who you are and your convictions, you feel so off and you don’t know who you are and you have people telling you who you are and why you should feel that way and you feel so much pressure. And then you get in your normal life and you think, oh my gosh, what have I done.”
For now, Johnson says she wishes Luyendyk Jr. the best. “I don’t think he meant to hurt anybody or be mean-spirited,” she says. “We’ve all been guilty of thinking about our own feelings and hurting somebody in the process. And I hope it all works out for him.”