“It was brutally difficult,” Vargas, 54, tells PEOPLE exclusively in this week’s issue. “I think anyone can imagine what that felt like.”
Vargas reveals even more in her new memoir Between Breaths (out Tuesday). After battling an alcohol addiction, Vargas was back in rehab after relapsing a third time. While the 20/20 anchor was away, her husband of 12 years, singer-songwriter Marc Cohn, hired a divorce lawyer and started the process – without telling her.
When she checked out of rehab, Cohn was still on tour so Vargas had yet to see her husband when she went on the air for an interview with George Stephanopoulos to tell the world about her addiction.
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“I look at that interview and I look stunned,” she says. “I feel for that version of me because I know looking at myself that you’re about to go home and find out your husband wants a divorce.”
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Now, in recovery, Vargas says her relationship with Cohen is about co-parenting their sons Sam, 10, and Zach, 13.
“We both love our children and we will be in each other’s lives for the rest of our lives because of these two amazing boys,” she says. “I think we both focus on that.”