Heather Morris Reveals Why She's About to Hit Her Breaking Point on 'DWTS'

Dancing with the Stars airs Mondays (8 p.m. ET) on ABC

Former Glee star Heather Morris is competing on season 24 of Dancing with the Stars — and blogging about her experience exclusively for PEOPLE. Follow Morris, 30, with pro dancer Maksim Chmerkovskiy, 37, on Twitter!

Sleep deprivation is definitely settling in this week. Currently, I am sitting next to my husband on the train heading down to Anaheim on one of my only days off this week. I bet you’re wondering why I’m doing this when I should be at home resting. Well, as the saying goes, when it rains, it pours. When you finally decide to do that renovation on your house that you’ve been putting off for the last two years, ABC calls and asks you to Dancing with the Stars.

Now, you’re most undoubtedly questioning why I would even consider putting myself through a process as hard as a renovation, while simultaneously competing on the hardest show on TV. Well, the way my husband and I look at it is either we make it through the chaos while I’m constantly working and staying busy, or I finish the show and have to live through it day in and day out while chasing after two busy boys. I don’t know about you, but nothing sounds worse than having to stay at home as an incredibly dangerous procedure swallows my entire household. We’ve gone with, We’re going to live through it and hope for the best.

When the it’s all done, I’ll finally be able to take that salt bath I most desperately have needed for the past five weeks (might be too late by that point).

Now onto the real reason why you’re actually reading this article: DANCING WITH THE STARS.

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To recap the performance last week, Alan and I performed a jazz routine to “For the First Time in Forever” from the iconic Disney classic, Frozen. If you didn’t tune in (shame on you) it was one for the books. (Well, my books to be exact). I got to pretend to play one of my personal favorite characters, Ana, from a Disney film I most truly adore and I had a blast doing it. I actually remember having an unearthly experience during the number where I recall thinking in the middle of my pivot turns, Disney is truly magical and I’m doing exactly what I love to do. Crazy right?

Upon judging my performance, Carrie Ann Inaba commented that she found it extremely underwhelming to watch because it did not have the amount nor the quality of jazz dancing that she expected from me. I do not blame her in the least bit, especially since having to judge my extremely character driven performance, directly after I had just finished a sentence along the lines of, “I’m very good at jazz dancing; it’s something I can do well.” Honestly, I was so incredibly happy, again, that I was a frickin’ Disney princess that I really didn’t care what happened.

Now, to take a moment from away from all of my own personal happiness, I want to discuss having to say goodbye to miss Erika Jayne. If you don’t watch Real Housewives of Beverly Hills, you don’t know much about her other than what minimal footage you’ve seen of her on DWTS. To get a little personal, she is truly one of the most genuine and real human beings I have ever come across and that is not something you come by everyday. What’s hard is, I’m competing against these people day in and day out, but to find how truly rough it was to see her leave the competition so early on, I think that resonates. To be quite frank, it just would’ve been nice to see her dance a few more times and listen to her reliably, positive nature.

At this stage in the competition, in terms of workload, it really is a taking a step up from the past five weeks because not only are we learning our own individual routines, but we have take on a group dance routine to boot. I will say though, it is nice for a change to actually have teammates, but the more numbers and work they’re tacking on, the more challenging it is mentally. I’m finding I don’t have the capacity to even think about cooking dinner or starting laundry these days. It’s strictly work from here on out, and that’s not always a bad thing (especially when there’s only a few short weeks left of the competition).

Our theme this week is GIRL GROUPS AND BOY BANDS, and although I didn’t get the boy band I initially opted for (ahem … Backstreet Boys), a close second comes from only the one and only R&B Trio sensation, TLC. I also get Maks back this week and as sad as I am to say goodbye to Alan, it’s really great to be back to the OG partnership that started it all. #TeamMaximumHeat.

Dancing with the Stars airs Mondays (8 p.m. ET) on ABC.