October 31, 2016 03:50 PM

New mom of two and Little Women L.A. star Terra Jolé is making history as the first little person to compete on Dancing with the Stars, and she’s blogging about season 23 exclusively for PEOPLE. Follow Jolé, 36, and her partner Sasha Farber, 33, on Twitter!

Scores are important on Dancing with the Stars, but sometimes there are things more important than scores.

It would have been great to win our team challenge but, regardless, I loved Team Future and felt everyone gave it 100 percent. I felt like we were together even though the judges disagreed. Looking back at the footage, I personally loved every minute and didn’t see how the judges couldn’t! Maybe they weren’t ready for the future?

Honestly, the only thing that would have put a cherry on top would have been an extreme trick. But learning a crazy trick may have been impossible, given that we had to learn the dance over cell phones due to everyone’s schedule.

As for my routine with Sasha, I felt like the performance last week was everything I could have asked for. Every step was there, every emotion, and it was fun performing. I loved everything about the dance from the dress to the music! Though I would have loved all 9s or a 10 (but loved that Len said I “put the ‘all’ in small”) the scores were really good leaving us second on the leaderboard.

But someone still had to go. Saying goodbye to Maureen was hard. She loved to dance and deserved to be here. Her energy was contagious and the love she shared with everyone makes it hard parting ways, but this is a competition. Eventually everyone will be going home.

This week we’re celebrating Halloween and dancing a cha-cha to “Day-O (The Banana Boat Song)” from Beetlejuice. We are reenacting the famous table scene where the family is taken over by the spirits of past residents.

This cha-cha is honestly the most fun I’ve had on the dance floor so far. It’s weird, funny, and for the first time we are dancing with the troupe! The troupe brings the energy to a different level! I love everything Sasha and I are bringing to this iconic number!

Craig Sjodin/ABC
Craig Sjodin/ABC

And I’d like to take a second to talk about my bond with Sasha. I never thought we would be this close. We have cried together, screamed at each other and laughed until I borderline peed my pants. It sounds crazy since we only met in August, but I truly love him! He is my brother, and there is a unexplainable bond between us.

Jana Kramer and I have also become really close. We share the motherhood aspect of life and both feel like there are not enough hours in the day with our little ones. She and I also act as therapy for each other at the start of the week when we are still learning the dance. Every week you think you’re not going to make it to Sunday, but you do! You may have cried about it or screamed at your partner, but that’s only because you want to be here and stay here!

Being a part of Dancing with the Stars has changed my life. I will always be grateful that I will never be the same. It has given me a drive unlike anything I’ve experienced with any other show I’ve been a part of. You really get to test your emotional and physical limits. That’s why I’m so grateful to share the experience with Sasha. He truly brings out the best in not only our dance, but also in me! He makes the experience fun for me while teaching me to be a better dancer!

There isn’t another pro dancer I would want to share this journey with.

Dancing with the Stars airs Mondays (8 p.m. ET) on ABC.

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