Cazzie David Opens Up About Her Split with Pete Davidson: 'It Was a Really Pivotal Moment in My Life'
In her new book of essays titled No One Asked For This, out on Nov. 17, the 26-year-old writer opens up about her two-and-a-half-year romance with Davidson, 26, and how she felt when the Saturday Night Live star started dating Ariana Grande.
David writes in her book that she broke up with the comedian in 2018 after struggling to convince him that she really loved him, according to a profile published Wednesday in the Los Angeles Times. Though she called him days after initiating the split to say that she had made a mistake, David says that Davidson told her that he was "the happiest he had ever been."
According to the author, Davidson dumped her in a text message two days following the phone call.
A representative for Davidson did not immediately respond to PEOPLE's request for comment.
In her book, David recalls finding out about her ex's relationship with Grande, 27, a day after the text and and how she "shook uncontrollably" in her father Larry David's arms during a flight to her sister's graduation, according to the L.A. Times.
"CAZZIE, COME ON!" David remembers the Curb Your Enthusiasm star telling her, the outlet reports. "YOUR ANCESTORS SURVIVED THE HOLOCAUST!"
However, David writes that she struggled with the thought of Davidson and Grande "immediately falling in love, accompanied by audio of her baby voice whispering sweet nothings in his ear, dubbed over his past declarations of love and trust to me," according to the publication.
"It was a really pivotal moment in my life," Davis told the L.A. Times. "And writing about it has caused me a ton of anxiety, especially because I talk so much about hating the attention it brought me. Why would I bring more attention to myself by writing about it? But there’s nothing that’s gonna be worse than what I already experienced with that."
While it did take some time for David to share her side of the story, the author and Davidson have since rekindled their friendship.
"Pete. I love you," she writes in her book, according to the L.A. Times. "Your bravery inspires me and your friendship means the world to me."
Davidson and Grande began dating in May 2018 before the King of Staten Island star proposed to the singer after only a few weeks of dating. By October of that same year, the couple called it quits and ended their engagement.
"It was way too much too soon," a Grande source previously told PEOPLE. "It’s not shocking to anyone."