"I can't even imagine walking up to Chris Harrison and being like, here I am again," Carly Waddell said

By Maria Pasquini
January 31, 2021 04:45 PM

Sorry Bachelor nation, Carly Waddell doesn't see any more rose ceremonies in her future.  

In a new YouTube Q&A, the Bachelor in Paradise alum — who split from Evan Bass in 2020 after three years of marriage — said she would be "embarrassed" to return to the franchise again.

"Lots of people are asking me if I would do another Bachelor show," said Waddell, 35, who was originally a contestant on Chris Soules' season of The Bachelor, and appeared on two seasons of BiP, where she met Bass. 

"When I think about that I just start laughing," the mom of two added. "I can't even imagine walking up to Chris Harrison and being like, here I am again. I'd be so embarrassed." 

Carly Waddell
Carly Waddell
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Waddell went on to share that "one of the biggest things" she has learned is to try and avoid repeating the same patterns in her life. "Look at how it worked out for me," she said of her time on the show. "It hasn't. So that would probably be a bad idea on my part." 

Although Waddell noted that she's in a "better place" than she was after first announcing her split, she's not ready to start dating again. 

"I can't even think about that," she said. "I was so excited to be done with it and thinking about doing it again...I'm terrified."

"I don't even know when I would even invite that into my life," she continued, explaining that she has no intentions on opening that door before her divorce is finalized. "To me I'm still married until it says that I'm not married. And maybe that's to my detriment, I don't know, but that's how I feel." 

Evan Bass and Carly Waddell
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As for whether she could ever see herself getting back together with Bass, Waddell simply replied, "It takes two to make that happn, so that's all I'm going to say about that." 

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Waddell and Bass —  who share two children, son Charles "Charlie" Wolf, 1, and daughter Isabella "Bella" Evelyn, 2 —  announced their separation on Dec. 23.

"We have made the difficult decision to separate," they said in a joint statement to PEOPLE. "We will always cherish our time together and continue to have the utmost respect for one another as we focus on what's best for the future of our family. We greatly appreciate everyone's love and support and kindly ask that you please respect our family's privacy as we navigate through this."