'I Am Cait' Recap: Caitlyn Jenner Compares Dating to 'Getting Fed to the Wolves'

Before mentoring trans youth, Jenner admitted that dating "scares me to death"

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Considering how gracefully Caitlyn Jenner has handled her rapid rise to transgender icon status, it’s a funny thing to be reminded that there have been stumbling blocks in her path.

Case in point: A facet of Jenner’s transition that many would consider to be pretty basic (not to mention one that has been hotly speculated) remained a mystery – even to Jenner herself – during the latest episode of I Am Cait. “We have no idea what the future holds,” she told her “hot as hell” pal Candis Cayne, “and that’s kind of the exciting thing.”

Early on in Sunday’s episode, Jenner noted that, despite three marriages and 65 years on this earth, “it’s been, like, a month or two now that I’ve been out, so I honestly haven’t even thought or been approached or been tempted in any direction” when it comes to dating.

Throughout the hour, whether visiting Los Angeles gay hot spot The Abbey or hesitantly humoring Cayne’s notions of hiring a matchmaker, Jenner was happy to superficially go through what her hairdresser Courtney’s boyfriend called the “awkward situation” of dating as a trans woman.

Still, she didn’t hold back: “This is a problem in the trans community – a lot of people are supportive, but when it comes a little too close, they have a hard time dealing with that. … It’s absolutely overwhelming. It might be too much.”

Even as Courtney pushed the Olympic gold medalist, asking, “When have you ever not just gone for it?” Jenner couldn’t help but admit, “It scares me to death – it’s kind of like getting fed to the wolves.”

Jenner’s friend Jennifer Finney Boylan, who happily maintained a romantic relationship with her wife through her own transition, paid a visit to help Jenner suss out where she stands as a single gal – and also to remind Jenner that men don’t define women.

After Jenner confided, “It would be very attractive to me to have a guy treat me like a woman … not make it this big trans thing or this or that. Just a normal relationship,” Boylan couldn’t help but remark that sexuality was “a funny place for [Caitlyn] to be conservative considering how far she’s come.”

She told Jenner: “It’s a thing that women do. We look to men to give us self-worth. I think now that you’re in the sisterhood, you have gone through such trouble to become a woman. Don’t be a stupid one. Be a smart one. … We all deserve love. And I worry for you, Caitlyn, that you’re not letting yourself be loved.”

Jenner assured, “I’ll play that card some day.”

Where Jenner has always excelled – whether as a the head of the Kardashian-Jenner household on Keeping Up with the Kardashians or as a beacon of the trans community in recent months – has been as a doer. And that was where she continued to thrive in Sunday’s episode.

On a short-term scale, she helped Cayne repair her busted-up Volvo by taking it to friend Sergio‘s body shop and by leasing a Lamborghini for a few days to make Cayne once again feel the thrill of possibility, both automotively and romantically.

“I think one of the worst things you can do is not feel excited about the future,” said Jenner.

“It’s been a long time,” admitted Cayne, who revealed a history of failed – and sometimes abusive – relationships this episode. “I don’t think it’s ever going to happen in the love department.”

On a greater scale, Jenner visited the kids at Camp Aranu’tiq, which counsels and supports transgender youth.

“One of the big problems of being trans, especially as a youth, is you really isolated – you feel like you are the only person in the world that is trans,” she said. “To find people that they can identity with, that they can be friends with, is so very important.”

Beyond Jenner’s continued mission to work both with and for the trans community, she thought the trip might give a little boost to her friend: “I hope this camp will really inspire Candis and get her going again because life’s good and it’s short.”

As both women listened to the stories of the Aranu’tiq campers, they were heartened to see trans people as young as 9 years old realizing – and not shying away from – their authentic selves: “They’re going to come out the other side,” Jenner affirmed, telling the campers, “We are all beautiful!”

For Jenner, it was a reminder that her journey is only just beginning – and that journeys are best shared.

“Going through life with a partner is always more fun,” she said. “It’s probably a little bit more complicated now that I’ve been out, but it’s possible. I never want to give up on love and partnership. That would be sad.”

She added, “I have no idea what the future holds when it comes to dating and relationships and all that kind of stuff, but I certainly wouldn’t say no to anything.”

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I Am Cait

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