“When it comes to the Fantasy Suite, when I was on Nick [Viall]‘s season, I said I wasn’t going to do it,” Lindsay, 32, tells PEOPLE exclusively in this week’s issue. “One, because I didn’t think I’d make it that far — but by the time I got there, my feelings for Nick were strong. I was falling in love with him. For me, that private time was really important to see if what we had was the same on camera as it was off.”
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“So, coming into my journey and doing The Bachelorette, that’s exactly what I’m going to expect,” she continues. “So if I move forward with it, it’ll be the person that I want to see if they are the same off camera — who I want that extended time and more conversation with.”
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Whether or not Bachelor Nation fans will see Lindsay embrace the Fantasy Suite dates this season, one thing’s for sure: She did find her happily ever after.
“I absolutely fell in love! I definitely did. I’m very, very happy,” she says. “I can’t wait for you to see how it plays out, cause I’m definitely engaged! I want to scream it, every time I say it.”
“I really do think I found my forever love,” she continues. “No, I don’t think — I know. He knows too.”
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And after being named the first black Bachelorette in the history of the franchise, Lindsay admits there’s added pressure that comes with the title.
“There’s going to be a lot of judgment, and I can’t please everyone,” she says. “I thought to myself, ‘Do I really want to do that? Do I want to take on that challenge?’ — and I’m not one to run away from a challenge — so why not challenge myself and have the opportunity to get exactly what it is that I want for myself?”
The Bachelorette airs Mondays (8 p.m. ET) on ABC.