Lifestyle Style Shannon Beador Says She Got Bad Fillers Ahead of 'RHOC' Reunion: 'I Don't Recognize Myself' "I'm having a really difficult time looking myself in the mirror," the reality star said on Instagram By Cher Updated on January 21, 2021 08:19 PM Share Tweet Pin Email Shannon Beador has decided to dissolve her fillers. The Real Housewives of Orange County star, 56, shared a series of posts from her plastic surgeon's office — who did not do the original procedure — on Thursday to take fans behind the scenes of the process. "Last night, part one of the RHOC reunion aired, and there are a lot of people asking, what did Shannon do to her face?" Beador said in a video on Instagram. "I wanted to look good for the reunion, so I went elsewhere to try a couple of natural and non-invasive treatments that have been very effective in tightening people's skin, but it didn't work at all on my skin," the reality TV personality explained. Shannon Beador. shannon beador/instagram RHOC Star Shannon Beador Claims Ex-Husband David 'Won't Communicate with Me and Co-Parent' Beador said that she didn't do research on the specific type of treatment she ended up getting, and decided to do it ahead of the reunion "without thinking it through." "I'm having a really difficult time looking myself in the mirror," Beador admitted, adding that she has support from her boyfriend and kids. "I don't recognize myself." Shannon Beador at the RHOC reunion. Casey Durkin/Bravo Beador shared a series of videos on her Instagram Story as well, documenting the process as her nurse practitioner injected a dissolvent into her cheeks. When the nurse practitioner lauded Beador for being a "great sport" during the painful process, she said, "I'm good. Anything, anything to get rid of it." The Bravo star will return to the clinic in two weeks for a follow-up appointment. Never miss a story — sign up for PEOPLE's free daily newsletter to stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories. Shannon Beador. shannon beador/instagram Shannon Beador. shannon beador/instagram Shannon Beador. shannon beador/instagram RHOC Sneak Peek: Shannon Beador Addresses Relationship Concerns with Boyfriend John Janssen In her caption, Beador said she shared what she was doing because she wanted to be "honest and open about what happened." "I am leaving negativity in 2020 and looking forward to 2021 with a positive attitude," she wrote. The Real Housewives of Orange County reunion continues next Wednesday at 9 p.m. ET on Bravo.