June 19, 2015 06:16 PM

Back in April, Cara Delevingne joined fellow Brits — and supermodel BFFs — Suki Waterhouse and Georgia May Jagger on the cover of Vogue U.K. But now, all eyes are on the 22-year-old supermodel, who just nabbed a solo spot on the front of U.S. Vogue, marking her second cover for the publication. (Her first was September 2014’s shared moment with Joan Smalls and Karlie Kloss.) In the lengthy cover story, Delevingne divulges on topics she’s never been open to discussing with the public, including her new life as an actor, the pressures of modeling and her sexuality.

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After landing the role as Margo in the upcoming film based on John Green’s novel Paper Towns, Delevingne has her heart set on acting. But that doesn’t mean she’s leaving the catwalk anytime soon. She calls the fashion industry a “dysfunctional family” she’s afraid to leave behind.

“I’m not sure I understand what fashion is anymore,” she told
. “I admit I was terrified to leave. I mean, the bubble gives you a kind of dysfunctional family. When you’re in it, you get it. And the second you’re out of it, you’re like, ‘What the hell just happened?’ ”

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Along with Paper Towns, Delevingne will also star in the upcoming comic book–based film Suicide Squad, alongside Jared Leto, Margot Robbie and Will Smith, to name a few. And with her new job comes new responsibilities, specifically regarding her weight.

“I’m not allowed to drink. I’m not allowed good food,” she said. “After turning 20 and eating McDonald’s all the time and drinking too much, it started to show on my stomach and on my face. But I’m playing a homicidal witch, so I need to look ripped.”

But she’s not taking the restrictions too seriously. “I say, ‘My body is a roller coaster,’ ” she said. “Enjoy the ride.”

In the beginning of her career, she admits she may have “enjoyed the ride” a little too much by experimenting with drugs and alcohol. “I had to be doing things with people at all times,” she said. “The life of the party is an easy part for me to play. It rots your insides, though.”

She adds that her experiences were no different from those of other young adults. “Honestly, I don’t think I did anything different from other people my age,” she said. “But I definitely have that addict gene. For me it comes out in an addiction to work. I’d probably have done more drugs back then if I hadn’t been working like mad.”

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Delevingne is also beginning to enjoy other aspects of her life, like her love life, and sharing them with the public — a topic she’s kept mum on up to this point.

“I think that being in love with my girlfriend is a big part of why I’m feeling so happy with who I am these days,” she said of dating American singer Annie Clark, who goes by the stage name St. Vincent. “And for those words to come out of my mouth is actually a miracle.”

Growing up and figuring out who she was — including her sexuality — wasn’t easy for Delevingne. “It took me a long time to accept the idea, until I first fell in love with a girl at 20 and recognized that I had to accept it,” she confessed to the mag. “But I have erotic dreams only about men. I had one two nights ago where I went up to a guy in the back of a VW minivan, with a bunch of his friends around him, and pretty much jumped him.”

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Are you excited to see Cara on the big screen? Will you be seeing Paper Towns? What about Suicide Squad? What do you think of her candid interview? Share below!

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