Jackie Kennedy Discussed Suicide with Her Priest After JFK's Death
After JFK's assassination, his wife, Jackie Kennedy, opened up about her anguish in conversations and letters with two priests
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Jackie, a devout Catholic, turned to her faith to cope with the traumatic loss of her husband — and the devastation of having to raise her children Caroline, then nearly 6, and John Jr., almost 3, alone. The First Lady, who was then just 34, opened up about her anguish in conversations and letters with two priests.
Writing to Irish priest Joseph Leonard, she confessed to feeling “bitter against God.”
Another priest, Father Richard McSorley, described to author Thomas Maiera conversation in which Jackie asked him “if God would separate her from her husband if she killed herself.”
Maier recounted the conversation in his 2003 book The Kennedys: America’s Emerald Kings, explaining that as the priest told Jackie the church’s position on suicide, “she finally interrupted him and said, ‘Father, I understand. I know it’s wrong. I wouldn’t do it. But it’s so lonely out there.’ ”
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But Jackie soon learned to cope, drawing on the strength and resolve she possessed throughout her life.
Her Vassar College classmate Susan Wilson tells PEOPLE in this week’s cover story, “She had a lot of confidence in herself — in all the things the rest of us ordinary mortals were sort of struggling with.”