"I stare at her all day and night because I don't want to miss a single thing," Emilia Bechrakis Serhant captioned a candid Instagram post on Monday night
Emilia Bechrakis is getting honest about the conflicting emotions surrounding the birth of a child.
Six days after welcoming her first child, a daughter, with husband and Million Dollar Listing New York star Ryan Serhant, the attorney took to Instagram to post a stunning black-and-white maternity photo of her bare baby bump and share her feelings about becoming a mother.
“I felt such a need to be private about my pregnancy on social media because I had so many ups and downs,” wrote Bechrakis, who underwent in vitro fertilization with Serhant, 34, to conceive their daughter. “I found the anxiety overwhelming. But through all the fears, scares, sickness, and aches, I loved every moment. Even the hardest moments. Every kick, every hiccup, every heartbeat, every ultrasound visit … “
“I know this sounds crazy but I miss my belly already,” she continued. “Having my baby safe in my belly … carrying her around with me everywhere. Now I stare at her all day and night because I don’t want to miss a single thing. Feeling those baby blues 😢”
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In his birth announcement on Sunday, Serhant revealed that he and his wife “waited almost 3 years to meet” their daughter and detailed the emotional process it took for them to get to the point of becoming parents, writing a lengthy message addressed to the newborn.
“We had no idea how difficult getting pregnant with you was going to be,” he wrote. “We tried everything. We were so nervous you might never come. When we finally decided to try IVF, we were so scared it wouldn’t work. And then you stuck. And then we heard your little heartbeat for the first time. Your mom and I were so excited every time we would go to the hospital to see you, but even more terrified we would lose you.”
Continuing, he added, “Because the fact that we were pregnant — as beautiful as it was — was almost too good to be true. And because of that fear, we loved you as hard as we could from the moment we knew you existed. We thought if we put that love for you out there, you would hear it, and you would make it. I watched you grow slowly with your momma every day, waiting for the moment I would finally meet you.”
Sharing her own hospital snapshot, Bechrakis wrote that she still “can’t find the perfect words to describe how madly in love I am” and revealed how “Every night, I prayed with all my soul that you were healthy and thanked God for the miracle that you are.”
In September, Page Six was the first to report the happy news that Serhant and Bechrakis were expecting their first child. The couple, who married in July 2016 on the island of Corfu in Greece, have been undergoing fertility treatments throughout the most recent season of MDLNY.
The pair have been open about their wish to start a family. “I’ve been looking forward to being a mom but I just always expected that it was going to be easy,” Bechrakis said in the season 7 trailer while in episode 5, they dived into the realities of IVF.
“I’m 33. She’s 32. We’ve been to doctors. We’ve been checked out and we’re both fine,” Serhant said. “So we’re now at the point where if we want to start a family, the next steps are to do IVF.”
The teaser for the season 7 finale gave the biggest hint about their baby, though. At the end, Bechrakis could be seen smiling and handing Serhant a small cardboard box. He opened it, looked inside and said simply, “Oh, man.”