Celebrity Parents Meghan McCain Reflects on Her Photo Shoot for 'The View' After Her Miscarriage: 'I Hate That Photo' "It was awful," Meghan McCain says on PEOPLE's podcast Me Becoming Mom while speaking about her photo shoot for The New York Times Magazine following her miscarriage By Georgia Slater Georgia Slater Twitter Georgia Slater is a writer/reporter on the Parents team at PEOPLE. People Editorial Guidelines Published on January 14, 2022 03:10 PM Share Tweet Pin Email Years after posing with her former View co-hosts for the cover of The New York Times Magazine, Meghan McCain says she still has a "hard time" looking at the photo. In this week's episode of PEOPLE's podcast Me Becoming Mom, the 37-year-old opens up about her distressing photo shoot experience following her miscarriage in 2019, sharing that she still doesn't like to look at the NYT Magazine cover to this day. "It was awful," she tells host Zoë Ruderman, Head of Digital at PEOPLE of the shoot. "Two of my friends were there and obviously The View hosts were there and some of the crew. And my really good friend and co-host Abby [Huntsman] was super pregnant with her twins on the cover and beautiful and amazing. She looks stunning, she is. I felt like she's this beautiful encapsulation of pregnancy and motherhood and I was like the opposite." "I hate that photo. I actually have a hard time looking at it," she admits. "And it's become a photo that people have seen of that period of time in The View." McCain, who is now mom to 15-month-old daughter Liberty Sage with husband Ben Domenech, goes on to explain part of her reasoning for leaving the talk show last year. Never miss a story — sign up for PEOPLE's free daily newsletter to stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories. Why Meghan McCain Says Her Miscarriage 'Hit Me a Lot Harder Than I Thought It Would' "I feel like people are very curious about me leaving the show and all these things. Part of it is I had to do so much that is very personal and private so publicly and not just miscarriage, but grief and postpartum stuff after pregnancy, and then a miscarriage," she says. "I feel like I'm at a point where it's too hard for me at my age — I've been in media since I was 20 if you count internships — I can't keep having myself in these situations where if I'm having a miscarriage, God forbid, that I have to do it in front of the New York Times photographers if that makes sense." McCain first publicly revealed in a New York Times op-ed in July 2019 that she had been pregnant with a daughter but subsequently suffered a miscarriage. She called the loss a "horrendous experience" at the time, adding that she "would not wish it upon anyone." Meghan McCain/Instagram More than a year later, in September 2020, McCain and Domenech welcomed their first baby together. The 12-episode weekly Me Becoming Mom podcast explores the various roads to motherhood through different interviews with both celebrity guests and experts in the field. Topics on the show include IVF, adoption, surrogacy, single parenthood, same-sex couples, home births, pregnancy loss, unexpected and surprising birth stories, among other subjects. Guests on the show include Allyson Felix, Hoda Kotb, Jillian Michaels, Shawn Johnson East and more.