Jamie Otis continues to speak out about her struggles after losing her first child, a baby boy, when she was just four months pregnant.
“Not a day goes by that I don’t wake up thinking of you, Baby Hehner. I know I have to get back to ‘normal life’ but I just don’t know how to,” Otis, 30, captioned two sweet photos from her pregnancy photoshoot with husband Doug Hehner, 35.
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“Today daddy and I are going to pick out a perfect name for you,” she continued. “We love you so much. I hope you’re bouncing on clouds and feeling loved all the way up in heaven.”
On Thursday, Otis published a blog post about the devastating loss.
“My heart is so heavy,” she wrote. “There are no words to express the pain and sorrow associated with losing our baby Hehner.”
She continued: “He was given to us so graciously by God, and then God took him away way too early. My heart hurts so bad. Losing our baby has been the most terrible experience. I wish no one would ever have to endure this.”
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A close friend of the couple told PEOPLE that “Jamie is the strongest woman I know.”
“And Doug has remained her rock through everything. Their love will get them through this,” the friend said.
— Andrea Park