Marissa Jaret Winokur may be best known for her bubbly, energetic personality, but she admits that the first year of motherhood nearly wore her down.
“It really roughed me up,” Winokur, who’s mom to Zev Isaac, 2, and will be co-hosting CBS’s fall chatfest The Talk, tells PEOPLE Moms & Babies.
“You get sleep-deprived because you’re up all night. People don’t tell you this! I still haven’t had a good night’s sleep since my son has been born – still to this day. I’m sleeping in a racecar bed with my son right now – he’s in a big boy bed but he cries for me in the middle of the night.”
“I became a mother and it was so overwhelming because it was just that moment of, ‘Oh, my God. This is forever,'” she explains. “No one ever told me that. In theory you know this baby is forever, but I don’t think anyone just tells you the extreme responsibility and what that means.”
Winokur, 37, hesitates to label her experience postpartum depression. “I was never diagnosed with anything – I was just totally stressed out and it was hard and I got through it.”
Fortunately, her baby blues have subsided. “I tell every mom out there that at 11 months the cloud will lift and you will start feeling like yourself again,” she said.
Winokur says part of what helped her was “having a really supportive husband [Judah Miller]. Just having a big support team at home and actually dealing with the fact that it’s going to be okay [helps].”
She also frequently turns to her large Facebook following for pointers.
“I ask for all the mommies’ advice on Facebook. The best that I’ve gotten so far: when everyone else was telling me not to sleep in the bed with my son, they said, ‘If you need a good night’s sleep, go sleep in the bed with your son.'”
— Scott Huver