Lil Xan's Partner Annie Smith Reveals She Had a Miscarriage: 'I Feel a Hurt I Never Knew Existed'
"Feeling you grow inside my body has been the most special gift I have been given," Annie Smith said
Smith dedicated a tribute to her baby in a heartbreaking post on Instagram Saturday, along with seven videos and photos that featured her and the 22-year-old rapper.
“The moment I met you I knew you were special. I fell head over heels in love with you and only love you more and more every single day. I didn’t know it was possible to feel this way about another human,” wrote Smith, who has been dating Lil Xan for five months.
“Starting a family with you has been the most magical, beautiful blessing God has given me. today I feel a hurt I never knew existed. a pain that comes from my soul. to my beautiful angel, mommy loves you more than she ever knew possible. you have made me the happiest woman in the world knowing I had the chance to be your mommy,” Smith said.
“Feeling you grow inside my body has been the most special gift I have been given, my prayers were answered with you. I wish more than anything that I could meet you, hold you and love you. teach you all the beautiful things in life and show you the world,” she continued.
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Smith concluded her post with a shout-out to Lil Xan, whose real name is Nicholas Diego Leanos.
“I wish you could’ve known how truly blessed you were to have a daddy like diego. we love you little angel. always,” she said.
On the same day Smith publicly revealed her miscarriage, Lil Xan told fans on Instagram Story that he was “not feeling well today.”
“I’m sorry if I’m M.I.A. for the next few days, I just need to get my mind right. I love you guys to death,” the Soundcloud artist said.
News of the pair’s pregnancy in February was announced two months after he checked out of rehab for a drug addiction, after checking himself in two weeks prior. “Out and Sober,” he tweeted on Dec. 16, along with a broken-heart emoji and an emoji of praying hands.