August 11, 2015 01:15 PM

Three months after delivering a daughter, Keira Knightley has revealed her baby girl’s name: Edie.

The Imitation Game actress, 30, who had initially kept mum about motherhood following the baby’s birth in May, opened up to Elle for its 30th anniversary issue about the wonder of the mother-baby bond.

“The love thing is astonishing,” she tells the magazine. “It’s a very primal, primal love. That’s quite extraordinary.”

She also reveals that giving birth had an unexpected bonus: It finally allowed her a self-confidence boost.

“I have to say, as a woman, you hate certain parts of your body. You go through those periods where you look in the mirror and you think, ‘Oh, if only I had different legs or arms or whatever.’ You go through pregnancy and labor and then feeding the kid and you go, ‘Wow, my body is totally amazing, and I’m never going to not like it again, because it did this, and this is f—ing extraordinary.’ ”

Paola Kudacki for ELLE

Motherhood might be extraordinary, but Knightley made it clear something else is not — celebrating your 30th birthday while in your third trimester.

“I was heavily pregnant, I couldn’t drink — What is the point of having a thirtieth birthday if I couldn’t get phenomenally drunk? But my husband [James Righton] took over, arranged a lovely lunch at one of my favorite restaurants, 20 of us, and they were all being so sweet, like, ‘Look, you can have a great time and be sober!’ And it’s fine apart from the fact that they started drinking at about one.”

The Oscar-nominated actress — who’s set to make her Broadway debut this fall in Thérèse Raquin in addition to starring in September’s Everest — says the boozing didn’t stop there.

“Then they came back to our house — they’d covered it in balloons that said my name and happy birthday and all that — and they got completely obliterated. They were there until two or three in the morning, absolutely drunk, and I was there eight months pregnant, completely sober. So it was lovely, but it wasn’t what I’d imagined a thirtieth birthday was going to be.”

Paola Kudacki for ELLE

Birthday bashes aside, Knightley says she’s happy to be out of her twenties.

“My career was absolutely amazing; in fact, I don’t think my career will ever get better than it was in my late teens, early twenties,” she explains. “But as a person, you’re changing so much and you’re trying to figure stuff out. Some people go wild and have a great time and throw caution to the wind, and I was the complete opposite. I was very shy. It took me a lot of years to try and stop pleasing a lot of people and allow myself to have fun.”

She adds, “It’s the difficult thing of getting out of your own head. To stop going, ‘Oh, there’s something I should be doing, there’s a way I should be behaving, I should be dressing …’ All of those shoulds, you can drown in them.”

— Kathy Ehrich Dowd

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