Chrissy Teigen Honors Late Son Jack with Memorial: 'Hopefully Some Closure in My Heart Will Happen'

Chrissy Teigen and husband John Legend announced September 2020 that they suffered the loss of their pregnancy with their son Jack

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Published on October 1, 2021 09:23 AM

Chrissy Teigen is continuing to honor her late son Jack, one year after losing him during her pregnancy.

On Thursday, the 35-year-old Cravings cookbook author shared photos on Instagram from a memorial ceremony she held for Jack alongside husband John Legend, her two children Luna, 5, and Miles, 3, as well as her mother Vilailuck "Pepper" Teigen.

For the solemn and touching tribute, the family dressed in all black and stood around a table that was adorned with flowers and candles.

"Took me a year but finally honored his little spirit with some blessings today. hopefully some closure in my heart will happen now 😩 thank you guys for the kind words. It's a process. Xx," Teigen captioned the post.

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Teigen and Legend, 42, announced on Sept. 30, 2020, that they suffered the loss of their pregnancy with Jack. Teigen, who suffers from endometriosis, was previously put on bed rest and eventually hospitalized due to excessive bleeding. The couple — who tied the knot in September 2013 — conceived both Luna and Miles via IVF.

"On this darkest of days, we will grieve, we will cry our eyes out. But we will hug and love each other harder and get through it," she wrote in September, announcing their loss.

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Prior to the memorial for Jack, Teigen also honored "the son we almost had" on Instagram Tuesday for National Sons Day. She shared a photo of herself crying in a hospital bed as husband John Legend held her.

"A year ago you gave me the greatest pain I could ever imagine to show me I could survive anything, even if I didn't want to," she wrote in the caption. "I didn't get to take care of you but you came and went to get me to love myself and take care of myself because our bodies are precious and life is a miracle. they told me it would get easier but yeah, that hasn't started yet. mom and dad love you forever."

Teigen said in December that she would "never" be pregnant again. "Coming to terms with not being able to carry again is still really difficult for me because I feel so healthy. I'm like, why?" she said in March. "But then I think about it as my uterus is just not cooperating with me — and it's not a failure."

Earlier this month, Teigen also got candid about how her body has changed since her last pregnancy, saying that she felt her body "paused in time."

"When you lose a baby halfway through, your body just pauses. It has nothing to do. No one to feed. And you're just … stuck. Stuck with saggy boobs that were prepping to be milk bags, a belly that was ready to bake," she wrote in a lengthy post. "I would be lying if I said this did not majorly suck. Not only are you ummmm extremely, diabolically sad at what could have been, but you have this daily reminder every time you look in the goddamn mirror."