Mother of two Busy Philipps admits to feeling like "an a--hole" after leaving daughter Birdie's teddy bears behind at their Hawaii hotel
Busy Philipps just wants the best for her kids — and like most parents, has a hard time seeing their disappointment.
The Dawson’s Creek alum and social-media pro revealed late Sunday evening on her Instagram Stories that after a relaxing Hawaiian vacation with husband Marc Silverstein and their daughters Cricket Pearl, 4½, and Birdie Leigh, 9½, they accidentally left behind two items near and dear to their older child’s heart.
Philipps, 38, explained what she called “a total parental fail”: The family packed without checking the bed sheets thoroughly, leaving them to miss the probability that Birdie’s favorite teddy bears, Radar and Flat Bear, were likely tangled up in the linens.
“It doesn’t make it better that, of course, all of Cricket’s animals made it back,” she says through tears after explaining that she and Silverstein split packing duties and Philipps had since called the hotel, who would follow up to let her know if housekeeping found the bears. “I just feel like such an a–hole.”
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The star admits in the emotional clips, “I know it’s just a mistake and these things happen but f— … it’s the worst when you’re a parent and it’s your responsibility to keep everything straight.”
And regardless of the mistake being an honest one, it doesn’t necessarily make things easier for Philipps as a mom. “She was just so heartbroken, and I knew it — as soon as I opened up the suitcases to get Cricket’s stuff out for bed, I was like, ‘I didn’t see Radar and Flat Bear. F—. F— f—.’ “
“So … back to reality,” says Philipps. “I just feel like such a bad mom. And now I have to pick up the mess I made when I opened all of our suitcases and tore through them like a f—ing lunatic.”
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Adding to the pain? Teddy bear Radar had a special personal meaning not only for Birdie, but for Philipps too.
“Radar was my bear when I was a kid, and Birdie just wrote a whole thing in English class about how it was her most prized possession, because it had been mine,” she explains.