Ashley Cain Says Planning Daughter's Funeral 'Breaks Me': It's 'Enough to Bring Me to My Knees'
Ashley Cain and Safiyya Vorajee's 8-month-old daughter, Azaylia Diamond, died on April 24 after a months-long struggle with leukemia
"I always dreaded the first time I'd have to plan a funeral. But I never thought it would be my own child's funeral," The Challenge star wrote on his Instagram Story on Thursday.
"Nothing could ever have prepared me for this. Some days it breaks me and I can't even bare to do it," he continued. "I always thought I was thought, but making decisions on how I'm going to bury my baby is enough to bring me to my knees every single time."
"It's hard to make sense of anything right now, especially why did it have to happen this way!" Cain added.
On her Instagram Story, Cain's partner Safiyya Vorajee also spoke about her grief in the wake of their daughter's death.
"My days are so empty without you when ever I think of you I ache from head to toe as I miss you so much," Vorajee wrote alongside a somber selfie on Thursday. "I get the biggest lump in my throat And I just want to fall to my knees n cry. But then I think about what Azaylia would do."
"You are my hero My guardian Angel," she added in another post addressed to her late child. "Your [sic] looking from heaven & I will make you proud I will keep your name spoke forever Azaylia diamond cain."
Azaylia died on April 24, five months after Cain first announced that the baby girl had been diagnosed with "a very rare and aggressive form" of cancer.
In February, the former pro soccer player said the family was "urgently informed that Azaylia's leukemia had returned" moments before she was due to leave the hospital after a stem-cell transplantation.
Two months later, Cain and Vorajee announced devastating news that doctors had found numerous tumors throughout Azaylia's body, making it extremely difficult for her to receive further cancer treatments.
As a result, Cain said, the couple decided to take Azaylia home to "give her the best rest of her life that we can give her."
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"I wanted to take this time to give thanks for all the love, care and support for Azaylia throughout her battle and still now for us as a family," he began. "I am broken and hurting more and more everyday right now."
Continuing his candid message, Cain wrote that he "made a promise to my daughter that I would keep her name alive by continuing to help other children, adults and their families during their own battles and I will honor that promise until I see her again."