Mac Miller addresses struggles he faced with his mother growing up and addiction in the newly leaked track, "Benji the Dog"
On Monday, the previously unreleased track titled “Benji the Dog” surfaced on music streaming site Soundcloud. Producer 88-Keys later addressed the leak, urging fans to “check back in for the finished version.”
“So I just found out that a song I produced which features my friend (the late/great Mac Miller) has been leaked,” he wrote. “The song you heard which was inappropriately titled with the name of my beat I played for Mac (“benji the dog”) is a rough version.”
At the beginning of the track, a sample of David Schwimmer saying, “He’s never gonna stop being the Juice,” can be heard. The clip is from an episode of The People V. OJ Simpson: American Crime Story in which Schwimmer played Simpson’s late attorney, Robert Kardashian.
Some fans on Twitter believe that the Schwimmer clip was edited in since Miller reportedly recorded the track in 2015 and the show did not premiere until 2016.[soundcloud url="https://api.soundcloud.com/tracks/623422041" params="auto_play=false&hide_related=false&visual=true&show_comments=true&show_user=true&show_reposts=false&color=ff5500" width="100%" height="300" iframe="true" /]
In the first verse of the track, Miller addresses the struggles he faced with his mother growing up and how drugs eased his pain.
“They told me don’t make a promise you can’t keep/All the drugs in your system, you can’t sleep/How many times you had to buy a Plan B/For a girl you never bring back home to meet your family,” Miller raps. “Man, I swear this is what I dream about/Ever since my mom told me that she need me out/Always smoke weed, causing trouble, never clean the house/But I paid her back for everything, I guess we even now.”
Later, Miller raps, “So hard to stay sober when you’re feeling f— over so much.”
“I can never sleep at night/F— paying bills, I need a brand new lease on life/Why does doing wrong always feel so right?/Well I guess f— it, that’s life,” he continues later.
Towards the end of the song, Miller addresses others who might be going through similar struggles and acknowledges that it is, simply, how life is sometimes.
“Say you’re running out of time, that’s life/Said your heart been broke, that’s life/Just pick it up and keep going,” he raps.