'I Had Hit Rock Bottom': Everything Demi Lovato Has Said About Her Sobriety Journey
“I’ve never had one of those moments on an awards show, and I thought, 'You know, if I ever come back from this’ — because I was still in the hospital and I didn’t know — and I thought, ‘If I ever come back from this, I end up going back to music and I’m on stage and I get a first performance, I want it to be at the Grammys and I want it to be this song.'”
— in an interview with Andy Cohen on the Radio Andy SiriusXM Radio Show in Jan. 2020, during which she dicussed life after her Aug. 2018 overdose and choosing to perform her song "Anyone" at the 2020 Grammys
“I almost listen back and hear these lyrics as a cry for help. And you kind of listen back to it and you kind of think, ‘How did nobody listen to this song and think, ‘Let’s help this girl?'
“I was recording it in a state of mind where I felt I was okay, but clearly I wasn’t. I even listen back to it and I’m like, ‘Gosh, I wish I could go back in time and help that version of myself.’”
"Thank you for never leaving me in my darkest moments, for always drying my tears.. even when they’re from watching Moana.. thank you for being loyal, honest and so grateful for every little thing.. like crying because we swam with fish/sharks/stingray and coral reef. I’m so lucky to be best friends with two incredible souls who are so talented and creative because it inspires me daily. And you’re so supportive of me and every little thing I do.. You’ve traveled across the country to visit me and stayed with me at my house for days on end when I’m struggling to make sure I’m okay but most importantly you never abandoned me like others did when I was going through shit.. you were there to listen, without judgement and only love and I can never fully express what that means to me. You’re the greatest friends I’ve EVER had and our future together is so bright. I love you both more than you can imagine!! Thank you for this past week 💗 @sirahsays@matthew_scott_montgomery"
— in an Instagram post dedicated to her friends in May 2019
“Today I would’ve had 7 years sober. I don’t regret going out because I needed to make those mistakes but I must never forget that’s exactly what they were: mistakes.
“Grateful that AA/NA never shuts the door on you no matter how many times you have to start your time over. I didn’t lose 6 years; I’ll always have that experience but now I just get to add to that time with a new journey and time count.
“If you’ve relapsed and are afraid to get help again, just know it’s possible to take that step towards recovery. If you’re alive today, you can make it back. You’re worth it.”
— in a March 2019 Instagram story
“So grateful for the lessons I’ve learned this year. I will never take another day in life for granted, even the bad ones.
“Thankful for my fans, friends, family and everyone who supported me through this year. God bless.”
— in a New Year's Eve 2018 Instagram story
"I have always been transparent about my journey with addiction. What I’ve learned is that this illness is not something that disappears or fades with time. It is something I must continue to overcome and have not done yet."
"I look forward to the day where I can say I came out on the other side. I will keep fighting."
— in an Instagram post following her July 2018 drug overdose
"Mama, I’m so sorry I’m not sober anymore / And daddy please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor/ And I’m sorry for the fans I lost who watched me fall again / I wanna be a role model, but I’m only human."
— revealing she relapsed after six years, in her new song "Sober"
"Tonight I took the stage, a new person with a new life. Thank you to everyone who has supported me throughout this journey. It will never be forgotten."
— on Twitter, after performing "Sober" for the first time in Portugal
"The final [intervention], everyone was like, 'We are no longer going to leave, we are leaving.' That was the moment when I thought, 'Okay, I really need to get help and get sober.' This time I knew … I had hit rock bottom and I just needed to do this for myself."
"I knew that I had a lot of life ahead of me but one of the main reasons of getting sober was so that I could be around my little sister because my mom and dad [said I couldn't be around her] if I was doing stuff."
"Every day is a battle. You just have to take it one day at a time, some days are easier than others and some days you forget about drinking and using, but for me, I work on my physical health, which is important, but my mental health as well.
"I see a therapist twice a week. I make sure I stay on my medications. I go to AA meetings. I do what I can physically in the gym. I make it a priority."
— at the Brent Shapiro Foundation For Drug Prevention Summer Spectacular, where she received the Spirit of Sobriety award
"I had to learn the hard way that I can't do parties anymore. Some people can go out and not be triggered, but that's not the case for me.
"I know [my life] sounds so boring. But I've come to a place where I'd rather be relaxed than get all dressed up and go to some party or club with people who don't really care about my well-being at all."
“I couldn’t go 30 minutes to an hour without cocaine and I would bring it on airplanes. I would smuggle it basically and just wait until everyone in first class would go to sleep and I would do it right there. I'd sneak to the bathroom and I'd do it. That's how difficult it got and that was even with somebody [with me], I had a sober companion, somebody who was watching me 24/7 and living with me [and] I was able to hide it from them as well.
"I was going to the airport and I had a Sprite bottle just filled with vodka and it was just nine in the morning and I was throwing up in the car and this was just to get on a plane to go back to L.A. to the sober living house that I was staying at…I had all the help in the world, but I didn't want it. When I hit that moment I was like, it's no longer fun when you're doing it alone."
— to Access Hollywood
"So grateful. It's been quite the journey. So many ups and downs. So many times I wanted to relapse but sat on my hands and begged God to relieve the obsession. I'm so proud of myself but I couldn't have done it without my higher power (God), my family, friends, and everyone else who supported me. Feeling humbled and joyful today. Thank you guys for sticking by my side and believing in me."
"[My sobriety anniversary] means so much to me because I feel like the day that I got sober was the day that I actually started living and so I like to call myself five years old. I've decided to be open about my story and share everything that I've been through because it helps others. And I've had several people come up to me and say, 'Hey, my dad got sober because you did.' or 'I got sober because you did.' And it just is so meaningful and impactful to me that I wouldn't change it for the world."
"After treatment, I had to have some time sober before I wasn't embarrassed to talk to [friend Nick Jonas]. The first time we saw each other since that tour was my [2012 Los Angeles] concert at the Greek [Theater]. We caught up right before the show, then performed. It was an emotional reunion — I got one of my best friends back."
— to Billboard
"When I went to rehab, my manager said you know, ‘You can either keep this private or you can share this with the world, and hopefully, someone can learn from your struggles.' And when I heard that I thought, 'I think it's more important that people learn from my struggles than to keep it to myself.'"
"I'm still underestimated. I still have more things to prove – not just about the things I can do with my voice. Some people think that because I'm young, I can't stay sober. But these are things I want to prove to myself."
"I didn't go into treatment thinking, 'OK, now I'm going to be an inspiration.' At times I was resentful for having that kind of responsibility, but now, it's really become a part of my life. It holds me accountable."
— to American Way
"If you were to sit my friends and me in a group together and we all shared our life stories, you wouldn't understand how we're still alive because of either our addictions or the stuff that we've survived. I never want to be like, 'Oh, I've been through so much,' like it’s a sob story. I'm proud of what I've been through and gotten over and sometimes, even to this day, when I do go through something I'm like, 'OK. It’s just a part of my story.' It'll be more to tell, and that's fine."
— to Complex
"People say that relapses happen before you use. Your mind starts setting up the relapse before you take that drink or that first hit. The times [Wilmer Valderrama and I had] broken up, I had already gone to that place of, 'Yeah, this is what’s happening.' I didn’t realize it at the time, but I just wanted to sabotage everything around me so that I could sabotage myself."
— to Cosmopolitan
"I am one of the 1 in 7 people who has faced addiction, and I am grateful to be in recovery today. It’s time for us all to reflect, and start @facingaddiction. Let’s stop ignoring the biggest problem in our country we often don’t want to look at. We all are connected to this issue one way or another and we all need to be part of the solution. Together we can replace shame with support, hope, and healing."
— on Instagram