Ariana Grande‘s life has weathered some extreme ups and downs in the past few months, but she’s still coming out on top.
Just a few days after Billboard revealed that her most recent single, “Thank U, Next,” will likely debut at number one later this month (her first time securing the elusive spot!) the 25-year-old pop star opened up on Twitter Sunday night about her struggles and, more importantly, survival.
After posting the now-viral lyrics to the song, she wrote, “i love y’all so damn much. thank u so so much for everything” before waxing slightly poetic.
“what an interesting, challenging, painful and yet beautiful and exciting chapter of life ….. when it rains it pours but i’m embracing all of it. i’m excited for whatever else the universe has in store for me. she’s growing n she’s grateful,” the singer tweeted, adding a black heart emoji.
She continued, tagging and thanking fellow musicians and friends, Victoria Monét, Tommy Brown and Tayla Parx: “thank u to my best friends who have helped me turn the literal sourest of lemons into the sweetest pink ass lemonade ever … clink clink bitch”
The newly single gal concluded with some real sentimentality, writing, “i honestly wouldn’t have been able to continue at all or process any of it as well without u as my motivation. so thank u for holding my hand thru it all, [whether] u could feel it or not.”
Grande’s musical success comes just weeks after she split from her fiancé, Saturday Night Live star Pete Davidson, following their whirlwind relationship of just five months. The breakup may have been prompted in part by the death of the songstress’s ex-boyfriend of two years, rapper Mac Miller, in September. He died at age 26 of an accidental overdose of fentanyl, cocaine and alcohol, the Los Angeles County Department of Medical Examiner-Coroner determined.
“She completely broke down after she found out about Mac,” an insider told PEOPLE at the time. “She can’t believe he isn’t here anymore. He was such a special person to her. She is very, very sad. … This is a nightmare for her.”
Then, about a month later, after Grande and Davidson called it quits, a source explained, “It’s true that Ariana has been struggling a bit with life in general [after Miller’s death]. It was devastating and shocking to her … It’s had a huge, negative impact on her life. It made her rethink many things in her life.”
Grande had been an advocate for Miller’s sobriety. “They were very much in love, and I have to say, she was incredible when he was first sobering up,” Miller’s friend Shane Powers said on his podcast The Shane Show in September.
“She was a f—ing G to him. There could not have been anybody more supportive of him being sober than Ariana,” Powers added.
Grande’s troubling year and several months began in May 2017, after a terrorist attack at her concert in Manchester killed 22 people and injured more than 500. She revealed to Vogue U.K. for its July issue that she was suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder.
“It’s hard to talk about because so many people have suffered such severe, tremendous loss,” she said. “But, yeah, it’s a real thing. I know those families and my fans, and everyone there experienced a tremendous amount of it as well. Time is the biggest thing. I feel like I shouldn’t even be talking about my own experience — like I shouldn’t even say anything.”
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On the anniversary of the attack, Grande — who returned to the U.K. shortly after to raise funds for the victims at the One Love Manchester benefit concert — reflected on the victims with a touching message on Twitter.
“Thinking of you all today and every day,” she wrote in May, adding a bee emoji that is a symbol of Manchester. “I love you with all of me and am sending you all of the light and warmth I have to offer on this challenging day.”