The actor opened up about his past cocaine use in an interview with Essentials magazine

By Lindsay Kimble
Updated May 13, 2015 07:00 PM
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It’s hard to imagine actor Tom Hardy as anything other than brawny, but apparently, his struggle with drug addiction was once so bad, he considers himself “f—— lucky to be alive.”

The 37-year-old, London-born actor told Essentials magazine that he was once “a shameful statistic,” reports Yahoo New Zealand.

“I was told very clearly, ‘You go down that road, Tom, you won’t come back. That’s it. All you need to know,’ ” Hardy said. “And that message stayed with me clearly for the rest of my days.”

Hardy, who’s married to fellow English actress Charlotte Riley, now lives a sober lifestyle. The healthy behavior is in stark contrast to his days of cocaine use, however.

“I would have sold my mother for a rock of crack,” he admitted to Essentials.

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The Mad Max: Fury Road star also told the magazine that his reputation as a “hard man” didn’t come naturally, calling himself a “petite little bourgeois boy from London.”

“People didn’t sit up and take any notice of me until I started putting on weight, kicking people and being aggressive!” Hardy said. “The trouble with Hollywood is that they want you to be something, then they think you’re who they wanted you to be.”