"I stared at the ground when walking around so I didn’t have to make eye contact with people," the Bravo star revealed
Ryan Serhant is taking an emotional trip down memory lane.
The Million Dollar Listing New York cast member shared a post on Instagram on Thursday celebrating wrapping the first installment of his spinoff series Sell It Like Serhant, and reflecting on his rough rise to fame.
“When I first came to New York, before I got into real estate, I was incredibly self conscious and shy,” Serhant wrote. “I was overweight. I had terrible skin. I stared at the ground when walking around so I didn’t have to make eye contact with people.”
Because he had yet to hit it big, the Bravo star recalled, “I would tell friends I was busy just so I didn’t have to go out or spend money I didn’t have.”
Things hit rock bottom one day when he was “feeling really bad about myself.”
“I went to the grocery store. I got a week’s worth of food and put them on the checkout counter, and my credit card was declined,” he said. “I didn’t have cash or any other cards, and I was in between job payments. It was humiliating, and there was a line of people behind me staring. So I just said I would come back and I left. I ran actually.”
Although he was “holding back tears,” on the subway home, Serhant took the opportunity to make a big change.
“Instead of feeling bad for myself, I made a decision that day — that no matter what — I was never going to feel that way ever again,” he said. “Starting that day, I was going to work my a** off, somehow some way, and I would get myself as far away from the broke and insecure person I was, sitting on that train.”
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After climbing the ranks in the luxury real estate world, landing his spot on MDLNY — which finished its sixth season in August — and most recently completing his solo show, it’s safe to say Serhant achieved his goal and then some. But hitting it big wasn’t the only priority for the 33-year-old, who married his wife Emilia Bechrakis in July 2016.
“I made a promise to myself that one day, I wanted to be successful enough to help others, who felt like I did on that train, reach their true potential and see that when there’s a will to succeed,” he said. “And that’s this show…with a little of my crazy humor, I’m helping sales people who are down on their luck and about to be fired, learn the most valuable tool anyone can have: how to sell. Because when you can sell, you can do anything.”
Sell It Like Serhant premieres in Spring 2018 on Bravo.