Julia Louis-Dreyfus Says She Was 'A Little More Breezy' Before Cancer
"I have a different kind of view of my life now, having seen that edge...," the actress tells The New Yorker in a new profile
Julia Louis-Dreyfus says that being diagnosed with breast cancer changed her perspective.
“I have a different kind of view of my life now, having seen that edge — that we’re all going to see at some point, and which, really, as a mortal person you don’t allow yourself to consider, ever,” the Veep star tells The New Yorker in a new profile.
“And why would you? What are you going to do with it?” she adds to the publication. “I was a little more breezy before. I was a little … breezy.”
But even as she grappled with the gravity of her situation, Louis-Dreyfus tried to keep a positive mindset.
“‘Am I gonna be dead tomorrow’ kind of thing? I didn’t let myself go there,” she said. “Don’t misunderstand: I was to-my-bones terrified. But I didn’t let myself — except for a couple of moments — go to a really dark place. I didn’t allow it.”
Louis-Dreyfus recountedthe career highs and personal lows during the week in 2017 when she learned the news.
She had a radiologist appointment on a Friday because of a lump in her breast. “He did a biopsy,” she noted, “and he said, ‘I think you should prepare yourself for bad news.'”
Chemotherapy — which, she says, “blasted” her hair — left her to contend with nausea, diarrhea, neuropathy and sores.
Her entire body felt different. “They definitely betrayed me,” Louis-Dreyfus quipped of her breasts. “It was like, I thought I knew these.”
In September, Louis-Dreyfus discussed her recovery with PEOPLE and said she was “feeling well.”
“I’m grateful to be alive,” she said at the time. “I’m grateful for my heroic husband [Brad Hall] and our lovely young boys [Henry and Charlie], or young men, I should say, who are our boys. And my friends and family. I’m grateful I have the life I have.”
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“Cancer isn’t at all funny, but a big part of dealing with it has been finding the funny moments,” she said.