Lifestyle Health Bebe Rexha Tearfully Talks Body Confidence Struggles on TikTok: 'I Just Feel Disgusting' Bebe Rexha shared an emotional TikTok with fans, telling them she has been posting less online because she does not "feel good in [her] skin" By Greta Bjornson Greta Bjornson Twitter Digital News Writer, PEOPLE People Editorial Guidelines Published on December 28, 2021 11:14 AM Share Tweet Pin Email Photo: Bebe Rexha TikTok Bebe Rexha is getting candid about her body image struggles. On Monday, the singer, 32, posted a tearful TikTok, during which she explained how weight gain has affected her self confidence. In the video, Rexha shared that she's having a hard time staying "merry" this holiday season because she doesn't "feel good in [her] skin." "So it is the holidays and I know we're all supposed to be, like, merry and like, 'Yay, it's the holidays,' which I am — ish," she began the video. Rexha then revealed she's the "heaviest" she's ever been, adding: "I weighed myself just now, and I don't feel comfortable sharing the weight 'cause I feel embarrassed." Bebe Rexha Collaborates on Lingerie Capsule Collection to 'Inspire Women to Feel Beautiful at Any Size' She continued: "I just feel disgusting, you know, like in my own body." Rexha went on to explain that her feelings about her weight made her want to take a step back from social media. "I haven't been posting as much because I don't feel good in my skin and when I don't feel good, I don't want to post and that's really honestly the reason I haven't been posting in the last year or so as much as I used to. I think all the body positivity that stems from me is probably a place of hurt and confusion," she said, adding, "I don't know how to help myself anymore or how to love myself." Bebe Rexha at the 2019 Grammys. Rich Fury/Getty Bebe Rexha on Living with Bipolar Disorder: 'It's a Part of Me I'm Constantly Dealing With' Rexha's video comes after she posted a message to anyone "feeling down" during the holidays. The pop star tweeted Dec. 21, "To the person who is feeling down this holiday season, you got this and you will get through. Sending you love." Being open and honest on social media isn't new for Rexha. She often encourages body positivity and self acceptance online. In July, she posted a TikTok of herself dancing in lingerie to Nicki Minaj's "Good Form." "How much do you think I weigh? No one's business," she wrote in text over the video. "Cause I'm a bad b--- no matter what my weight. But let's normalize 165 lbs." Never miss a story — sign up for PEOPLE's free daily newsletter to stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories. She previously opened up about encouraging her fans to love themselves in a June interview with PEOPLE, explaining, "As a woman who wasn't the cookie-cutter pop-star, I hope to inspire women to love their bodies and feel beautiful at any size." In a May interview with PEOPLE, Rexha said she was once told, "Nobody likes a fat pop star," while first beginning her music career. Since then, she said she's gained confidence. "That f—ed with my head, because they made me believe that I was nothing unless I looked a certain way," she said at the time. "I didn't like looking at pictures because there was a little fold of skin. Now I'm like, 'You can't live your life like that.' I got the curves, I got the ass, and that's what you're going to get!"