Anthony Bourdain and Paula Froelich dated for several months in early 2005
Froelich, a columnist, shared one of her favorite photos of her and Bourdain on Instagram Friday, hours after the news that he died at the age of 61 of an apparent suicide in France.
“To a good man, a great friend, a loyal love. That’s all I’m going to say,” Froelich, 44, captioned a picture of the pair, who dated for several months in early 2005 according to Yahoo.
Though she took down her tweet, Froelich shared a series of follow-up tweets about depression. “It’s a sneaky little, sticky Bitch. You can be rich as hell, totally successful but still lonely AF and the ‘you’re nothing but a fraud’ voice only goes away when the Ambien takes effect,” she wrote in her first statement.
Froelich also noted, “It’s lonely, it magnifies everything into something awful, and you don’t know when or if this cycle will end… so it’s also terrifying. And embarrassing. And humiliating – because there’s something wrong with you.”
“But take heart in knowing: only the best, funniest, loveliest, most empathetic, wonderful, talented people have depression. You’re in a good crowd. Now. Let’s go fight that black dog. Together,” she concluded her Twitter thread.
Also on Friday, she told The Daily Beast that she had last seen Bourdain one year before. “He was a great guy. A great guy. I last saw him a year ago. He was a wonderful human being,” Froelich said.
Back in April 2005, Froelich confirmed her relationship status with Bourdain when he catered her book party.
On how she got her boyfriend to cook for the event, she told the New York Times, “I have to tell you he offered which I never would have asked him. I mean that’s a bit much, you know, to be like, ‘Oh hey by the way I know that we like to hang out and have sex but will you cook for my party?’ You know, no. He offered,” she said at the time.
On Friday, the host of CNN’s Anthony Bourdain: Parts Unknown was found unresponsive in his hotel room by his close friend and French chef Eric Ripert, according to CNN. Both were filming an upcoming episode of Bourdain’s award-winning show.
A police spokesperson in Strasbourg, France, confirmed Bourdain’s death to PEOPLE.
If you or someone you know is considering suicide, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), text “help” to the Crisis Text Line at 741-741 or go to suicidepreventionlifeline.org.