As Conrad Roy’s fear of dying by suicide overwhelmed him and he exited his truck filled with deadly carbon monoxide, the teen who claimed to be his girlfriend told him to “get back in,” according to testimony in her trial.
Michelle Carter, then 17, has pleaded not guilty to involuntary manslaughter in the death of Roy, 18, whose body was found inside the truck in a Kmart parking lot in Fairhaven, Massachusetts, on July 13, 2014.
But Carter, now 20, allegedly expressed remorse about her role in his death in a text she sent to her friend Samantha Boardman, who read the text in court Wednesday, according to multiple media reports.
“Sam his death is my fault like honesty I could have stopped him I was on the phone with him and he got out of the car because it was working and he got scared and I [expletive] told him to get back in,” Carter allegedly texted to Boardman, reports the Boston Herald.
“I knew he would do it all over the next day and I couldn’t have him live the way he was living anymore,” Carter allegedly wrote to Boardman. “I couldn’t do it. I wouldn’t let him.”
Prosecutors have accused Carter of urging Roy to kill himself. They cite more than 1,000 texts sent between the pair in the week before Roy, a well-liked but troubled teen whose friends knew he had attempted suicide previously, connected a hose from a portable generator to pump the poisonous fumes into his pickup truck.
“I should have did more and it’s all my fault because I could of stopped him but I [expletive] didn’t,” Carter allegedly texted to Boardman on September 15, 2014, reports MassLive.com.
Prosecutors who opened their case Tuesday also put two other friends of Carter’s on the stand Wednesday morning. Both testified Carter was on the phone with Roy when he died.
“I was talking to him on the phone when he killed himself,” Carter allegedly texted Olivia Mosolgo, who played on a softball team with Carter. “Liv, I heard him die. I just wish I got him more help.”
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To another friend, Alexandra Ethier, who Carter knew from working at a summer camp, Carter allegedly texted: “Yeah and I was on the phone talking to him when he killed himself. I’m heard him dying.”
Carter’s defense attorney Joseph P. Cataldo has challenged the charges, saying that other text exchanges between Carter and Roy show that she tried to talk him out of suicide and urged him to get help. The defense argued that Carter was overwhelmed and unable to cope with her boyfriend’s feelings, and that Roy had a history of depression — he had been prescribed antidepressants — and ultimately made the decision to kill himself.
The trial is ongoing.