Jaycee Dugard says she feels "totally capable of having a relationship one day"

By Tierney McAfee
Updated July 06, 2016 08:05 AM
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Seven years after she was liberated, kidnapping survivor Jaycee Dugard is reveling in her freedom – and open to finding love. Subscribe now for the exclusive interview and excerpt from her new memoir, only in PEOPLE.

After spending the past seven years rebuilding the life that was taken from her when she was kidnapped in 1991, 36-year-old Jaycee Dugard is opening her heart to a new possibility – finding her first love.

“I have never even been on a date before!” she writes in her second memoir, Freedom: My Book of Firsts, due out July 12.

“The only boy ever to ask me out was ten, and I was nine,” she continues. “I didn’t really know what to say so I turned him down. I kind of regret that now, but who knew it would be my only opportunity.”

Although she writes in her memoir that she’s “not actively seeking love” – and definitely not signing up for dating sites – Dugard says she feels “totally capable of having a relationship one day.”

“I don’t feel so damaged that I am totally put off by the idea,” she writes. “I just don’t know.”

For now, Dugard finds happiness in reading, riding her horses and spending time with her two daughters, who are on the cusp of adulthood.

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“I see my daughters have relationships and I feel like one day when the time is right I will meet the right person for me,” Dugard writes of her children, who were fathered by the man who held her captive for 18 years, Phillip Garrido.

In the meantime, Dugard is content to daydream about what her own happy ending might look like.

“I like romance and fairytale junk so my expectations are pretty high nowadays,” she writes. “So unless you ride a beautiful white stallion, can stand with me to slay all our dragons, and make me a princess, you are pretty much out of luck.”