Sinead O'Connor's Tumultuous Life: In Her Own Words
The singer posted what appeared to be a suicide note on Facebook Sunday evening
“I have taken an overdose,” O’Connor wrote before PEOPLE confirmed the singer was located safely in Dublin. “There is no other way to get respect. I am not at home, I’m at a hotel, somewhere in Ireland, under another name If I wasn’t posting this, my kids and family wouldn’t even find out. Was dead for another fortnight since none of them bother their hole with me for a minute. I could have been dead here for weeks already and they’d never have known.”
The troubling post comes at a time when O’Connor, 48, has reportedly been struggling with her health and sparring with her exes, Donal Lunny and Frank Bonadio, to see her youngest children: Shane Lunny, 11, and Yeshua Bonadio, 8. (O’Connor is also mom to Jake Reynolds, 28, and Roisin Waters, 19.)
And this isn’t the first time the Irish singer has taken to social media to share distressing posts. In 2011, an alleged string of suicidal Tweets prompted police to visit her home.
Below, read more about O’Connor’s life in her own words.
On Growing Up with an Abusive Mother
“It was physical violence, perpetrated particularly in a sexual manner. She wasn’t trying to have sex with me, but she spent a good time trying to destroy my reproductive system. It was psychological, too. It was a torture chamber, really. But I forgive my mother; she just wasn’t well.” (To PEOPLE in 2012)
On Her PTSD Diagnosis
O’Connor said she was misdiagnosed as bipolar in 2011; later that year, she said she was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder and slowly weaned off her bipolar meds.
“Recovery from child abuse is a life’s work … [My PTSD] comes from my experiences with child abuse: You’re vulnerable, self-esteem-wise. I’m hearing all these things people are saying about me to my husband, and I started to think negatively about myself, and it pushed some dangerous buttons. It’s like if you get a puppy from the pound who has had the s— kicked out of it – you have to be careful with how you deal with it. It was quite the trauma, to be honest.” (To PEOPLE in 2012)
On Her Kids Sticking By Her Through Her Hard Times
“I’ve been good about keeping it together at home. But at work, I was falling apart. That’s why I went to the hospital: So they wouldn’t be exposed. My older kids see the papers, they know I’ve had difficulty with depression, and they aren’t frightened by it.” (To PEOPLE in 2012)
On Being Called ”Crazy”
“I really feel the use of the word ‘crazy,’ or associated words as terms of abuse, should become a crime punishable by imprisonment. We need to be compassionate and gentle toward those of our brothers and sisters who have been hurt and are wounded and fragile, while also strong and alive. We should not mock those who are brave enough to show their wounds.” (To PEOPLE in 2012)
On Her Relationship with Social Media
In 2013, she posted an open letter cautioning Miley Cyrus not to ”prostitute yourself” to the music industry.to the music industry. A year before, she described her perspective on the Internet:
“Twitter’s fantastic. It’s friends. We’re all keeping each other company. You have 10,000 friends, you can have crazy conversations and meet crazy people, and it’s fantastic. I need friends as much as anyone else. It’s an outlet as much for when you’re happy as when you’re f—ed up. It’s an outlet for fun as much as childishness and stupidity.” (To PEOPLE in 2012)