“Hef did nothing wrong,” Wilkinson said, “but I made the choice to sleep with an 80-year-old man for some money. He did everything right for me. I’m going to be his soldier out here.”[soundcloud url="https://api.soundcloud.com/tracks/263967891" params="visual=true&auto_play=false&hide_related=false&show_comments=true&show_user=true&show_reposts=false" width="100%" height="450" iframe="true" /]
“I ended up loving him at the end of the day,” Wilkinson continued. “I love him to death and I appreciate everything he’s done for me. He’s done zero harm in my eyes to anyone I’ve ever seen.”
Wilkinson also admitted she regrets reacting emotionally during Thursday’s afternoon’s Twitter rant about Madison – which the star deleted hours later.
“It didn’t represent who I truly am. It represented me at a moment,” she explained to McCartney. “I was just reacting emotionally. I just blew up. That’s something that I’m trying to control. I’m trying to be better at doing. I failed at doing that yesterday. I became 21 again.”
“I don’t regret speaking my mind, but I regret reacting emotionally,” she continued.
Wilkinson may have apologized for her rant, but don’t expect her to stop reacting to Madison’s time in the mansion anytime soon. “She painted this black cloud over the mansion I don’t like too much,” she said. “She walked around with her nose in the air, with ‘This is my house, get the f— out’ type of attitude.”
“I wish I could respect her,” Wilkinson said. “There is a place in my heart where I was [like] ‘Okay, I’m looking for something to…understand where she’s coming from.’ But then she does this whole, ‘I was afraid thing.’ That just sent me over the top.”
Wilkinson’s new book The Vegas Diaries, which details Madison’s journey after she left the Playboy world, is out May 17.