Jennifer Lopez Reveals How American Idol 'Made Me More Human'
"To see it reach its end is sad," the star tells PEOPLE exclusively about her final turn as an Idol judge
“I truly love it, and I think America loves it – and that’s why it’s been [on] so long,” Lopez, 46 – who’s currently starring in NBC’s hit show Shades of Blue, judging on Idol and performing in Las Vegas for her residency – says in The Jess Cagle Interview with People and Entertainment Weekly‘s editorial director. “To see it reach its end is sad.”
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Her first season as a judge in 2011 “was a sort of reintroducing me after having the babies and being away for a while,” says the star, who has 8-year-old twins Max and Emme with ex-husband Marc Anthony. “Also for my self-esteem … I had realized I wasn’t feeling great about myself, and then when I was on Idol and people were seeing me and they were like, ‘We like her,’ honestly … That’s nice.”
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Though she’d been in the spotlight for decades already and “felt that people knew who I was, like they could feel my heart,” it wasn’t until she took her turn as a judge that Lopez realized “they really didn’t,” says the entertainer. “They saw, ‘Oh, she’s a person, she loves music, she’s super emotional, she cares,’ [and] it made me more human to them.”
Adds the singer: “Being a part of Idol and that being a part of my legacy, being on one of the greatest television shows ever, all of it feels like such a blessing.”