People.com Celebrity Holly Madison 'Has No Regrets' About Time with Hugh Hefner, Source Says A source close to Holly Madison echoed her sentiments about the billionaire in her memoir By Lindsay Kimble Lindsay Kimble Lindsay Kimble is a Senior Digital News Editor and the Sports Editor for PEOPLE Digital. She's worked at PEOPLE for over seven years as a writer, reporter and editor across our Entertainment, Lifestyle and News teams, covering everything from the Super Bowl to the Met Gala. She's been nominated for the ASME NEXT Awards for Journalists Under 30, and previously wrote for Us Weekly while on staff at Wenner Media. People Editorial Guidelines Updated on December 2, 2020 01:32 AM Share Tweet Pin Email Photo: Tiffany Rose/WireImage Despite her dark time in the Playboy Mansion, Holly Madison doesn’t regret dating Hugh Hefner, a source close to her tells PEOPLE. Madison revealed the “twisted world” this week in excerpts from her upcoming tell-all memoir Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a former Playboy Bunny. In the book, Madison, 35, writes that she contemplated suicide in 2002 at the peak of her “misery” and nearly drowned herself in the bathtub. But now, Madison “has no regrets” about being Hefner’s No. 1 girlfriend during E!’s The Girls Next Door. “Because without living her life exactly as she had, she might not have met her husband and had her daughter,” the source says. “Rainbow is her priority. Her husband and her family is what she is focused on. She’s tired of people thinking Playboy was an idyllic world. She wants to finally be the one to tell her own story. And after that, close that door and nail it shut!” Madison has no relationship with Hefner and is focused on her family with husband Pasquale Rotella, the source adds. Hefner did not respond to calls for comment.