The singer opens up about life and love on Good Morning America

By Lindsay Kimble
Updated April 04, 2016 09:35 AM

Gwen Stefani has found happiness with Blake Shelton, but she’s still hurting from her emotional split from husband Gavin Rossdale after 13 years of marriage last year.

“It’s still painful,” Stefani said of the divorce and putting her feelings to music for her new album on Good Morning America Monday. “I’m still looking at the pieces going, ‘What is happening?’ There’s so many great things but it’s still super hard to have your family break up … What do you do after that? Like, here we are.”

Stefani has previously said that the reason behind her split from Rossdale is a “really good, juicy story,” and that the entire ordeal made her feel “dead.”

The singer repeated that sentiment on Monday, saying, “I felt like I was so, I was so – I can’t even find the words, oh my God – I was embarrassed, and I felt like, ‘Wow, I can’t go down. This is not who I am, I’m not gonna fail.’ I had to make something good out of it, so I tried to write … I was like, ‘I’m gonna do this, I’m gonna make this into music.'”

And This Is What the Truth Feels Like, the No Doubt frontwoman’s third solo album, really did help her heal.

“There was magic in the room. I was put in the studio by my label – I didn’t care about anything,” she explained on GMA. “I was literally just trying to get up in the morning. And I got there and I just said, ‘I just wanna write a record. I don’t care about anything but getting this out and healing … Nothing matters except for just trying not to die right now.'”

While tracks like “Red Flag” capture her tumultuous divorce, the album also features an obvious nod to Shelton: “Make Me Like You,” a song Stefani called one of her favorites to write.

“Everybody in the room was just kinda like, ‘This is happening right now,'” Stefani said of the tune coming together in just “10, 15 minutes.”

Performing the hit song and others from the album has been “100 percent” life-saving for the star, she said.

“It feels like I’m supposed to be doing this right now, and sharing my story,” added Stefani. “I really hope that this record brings people pleasure.”

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As for what’s next in her romance with Shelton, Stefani has said, “God knows what’s going to happen.”

“But I feel like I’m in an amazing songwriting place. Instead of being closed off, I’m thinking about positivity and how I can do something creative,” she explained. “Now I don’t have to be insecure or write about heartache.”