Everything Gwen Stefani Has Said About Getting Over Her Divorce from Gavin Rossdale
ON HOW HER MARRIAGE HAD BEEN 'EXTRA HARD'
"I had to work really hard at marriage, all the time, like everybody, but ours was extra hard, when you add that we're from different countries, both of us being in music, and celebrity. [Marriage] was the one thing I didn't want to fail at."
ON THE INITIAL SHOCK
"My dreams were shattered. All I wanted my whole life was to have babies, be married, like what my parents have."
ON FEELING 'THIS HUGE WEIGHT'
"I didn't want anyone to know what was going on with me … I had this huge weight on me and nobody but my parents and obviously everybody involved knew."
ON TELLING BLAKE SHELTON ABOUT HER DIVORCE AFTER HE REVEALED HIS
"[It] was just unbelievable that God would put us in a position to have each other at that moment, in the same exact moment."
ON KEEPING IT A SECRET AT FIRST
"At that time everything was like I had no skin, it was so raw. Nobody knew what was happening, and I had this big secret."
ON FEELING EMBARRASSED
"During that time period, I felt like I was down all the way, like, you don't go down lower than that. It was rock bottom. I was so embarrassed, you know what I mean?"
ON TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO HANDLE THE SITUATION
"How do I save myself? What am I going to do? How do I not go down like this?"
ON SPLITTING CUSTODY OF HER THREE CHILDREN
"It was so insane because not only did my family break up, but then my kids are taken away like half the time, so that was really like, 'What?! What did I do?'"
ON FINDING THE POSITIVE
"Of course you go through the 'Why me?' and feel sorry for yourself. But then I was like, 'No, this happened to me already and I made something good out of it,' and that was Tragic Kingdom."
ON KEEPING SOME OF THE DETAILS PRIVATE
"It's because I have children [Kingston, 10, Zuma, 7, and Apollo, 2]. As a famous person, you start to think, 'I can't say all that because I'll embarrass them or hurt them in some way.' And especially now because they can see everything and hear everything. But I've done nothing I'm ashamed of … Well, we all have a few things we're ashamed of."
ON FINDING LOVE AGAIN WITH BLAKE SHELTON
"It was like being handed this gift of a friend who was going through the exact same thing at the exact same time. And then everything flipped. It went from horrible to, like, hopeful and like, 'Wow, God, you just don't know what's gonna happen next.' "