Peter Hapak
December 08, 2015 11:35 AM

Ellen Page is “just done” hiding.

In a new interview with American Way magazine, Page spoke candidly of the “closeted-ness” that left her feeling guilty leading up to her coming out as gay last year.

“I was just done. It’s so toxic to just be hiding,” Page, 28, said in the magazine’s December cover story. “It becomes so consuming without you even knowing it’s consuming you. You become so complacent in this reality you create.

“It’s like a bucket, and it’s filling up and filing up and filling up – and finally it just spills over. And I felt guilty for not being out for the LGBT community. I was like, ‘Dude, just say you’re gay.’ ”

The Freeheld actress came out as gay in a speech at the Human Rights Foundation’s Time to THRIVE conference in February of last year. She told American Way that she wanted to “do it and not make it seem about myself.”

“For me, it was a great opportunity to be honest, to share certain elements of the pain that I went through,” she said. “The reality is, there are very few young people out as actors, so I was hoping to speak to a lot of the issues so it wouldn’t just seem like, ‘Hey, look, I’m gay.’ ”

Since her coming out, the Oscar-nominated actress – and Gaycation host – has established herself as a gay-rights activist.

Page is currently in her first public relationship since coming out, with girlfriend Samantha Thomas. The two made their red carpet debut as a couple at the Toronto International Film Festival in September.

Ellen Page (right) with Samantha Thomas
Jeff Vespa/Getty

“I’m in love,” the actress said at the TIFF Freeheld premiere. “Walking down the red carpet holding my girlfriend’s hand is pretty special. It’s pretty awesome.”

In September, the actress got emotional when talking about her journey during an appearance on The Late Show with Stephen Colbert.

“I feel so grateful for it. I feel so grateful to feel how I feel now, compared to how I felt when I was a closeted person,” she told the host. “It’s not a nice place to be. I was sad.”

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